A Big Dreamer

Monday, July 12, 2010

Today I was awaken by Ibu. She woke me up for sahur but I told her I'm not fasting today since I'll be having understand test right after school. I need energy for that. :) I fell to sleep again and was awaken by ayah's voice. " Bangon bangon..solat subuh ". I woke up, bathed and got changed. Guess what? I forgot to pray. =.= Ayah has been sending me to yew tee mrt this past few weeks. Me likey! :):):) I reached school, with a heavy heart. I did not do any revision at all for the understanding test. Not even a little peep to the 6p. tsk! I had this urge to partial and joined aishah and sha at the library. I wanted to do so, but I changed my mind. I glued my butt to the chair and tried searching for some resources for the presentation later on. I really couldn't stand it. I was at the verge of giving up and just packed my bag and off to somewhere where I can just screaaaaaaaam and feel calm. My head was bombed with so many questions. why this? why that? why not this? why not that? As usual, I felt so emo today. My friends caught me. damn! I thought I could masquerade everything. tsk!

I called rein, hoping I could meet him before I sat for my ut. But he doesn't allow me to do so. He asked me to sit in class and study. I felt so freaking sad but to think of it again, he has the point. It was good for me. :) Then, I felt so agitated. No specific reason why but I just did. So, I borrowed earpiece from shikin, plucked my ears and watched the rock climbing documentaries, DOSAGE. :) For once, I felt so calm and normal again. See! Told ya rock climbing never fails to make my day. :):):)

It has always been about sadness for the past few weeks. Syahirah, will you smile? The question is, how to? When everything in your life seems so complicated and messed up. I hate the situation I am in right now. I hate being single. I swear to god I hate it alot! Some say, you stay single to mingle so that you can find the right person. fuck it! It's all up to the individual. I would rather be in a r/s, stay faithful with just 1 guy, go through thick and thin together, happy and cry together rather than to mingle with so many people and feels so tak tentu arah. I seriously hate it. But with whom can I be faithful with? Things are still complicated as how it is. I miss you, so teribly. Mohd Shahrin Bin Md Ali. I miss you so much. I miss those nonsensical times we had. I miss digging your ear and you would go laughing because it's ticklish. Then, I would laughed at you and goes " eeeewww...tengok taik telinger u ". haha! I never thought that looking back at those happy moments can make me cry. :/ I miss you, can I? And I still love you. Always have and always will. I miss you, so dearly.

I need you back in my life.

7:52 AM
Yours truly.

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	Monday, July 12, 2010 Today I was awaken by Ibu. She woke me up for sahur but I told her I'm not fasting today since I'll be having understand test right after school. I need energy for that. :) I fell to sleep again and was awaken by ayah's voice. " Bangon bangon..solat subuh ". I woke up, bathed and got changed. Guess what? I forgot to pray. =.= Ayah has been sending me to yew tee mrt this past few weeks. Me likey! :):):) I reached school, with a heavy heart. I did not do any revision at all for the understanding test. Not even a little peep to the 6p. tsk! I had this urge to partial and joined aishah and sha at the library. I wanted to do so, but I changed my mind. I glued my butt to the chair and tried searching for some resources for the presentation later on. I really couldn't stand it. I was at the verge of giving up and just packed my bag and off to somewhere where I can just screaaaaaaaam and feel calm. My head was bombed with so many questions. why this? why that? why not this? why not that? As usual, I felt so emo today. My friends caught me. damn! I thought I could masquerade everything. tsk! I called rein, hoping I could meet him before I sat for my ut. But he doesn't allow me to do so. He asked me to sit in class and study. I felt so freaking sad but to think of it again, he has the point. It was good for me. :) Then, I felt so agitated. No specific reason why but I just did. So, I borrowed earpiece from shikin, plucked my ears and watched the rock climbing documentaries, DOSAGE. :) For once, I felt so calm and normal again. See! Told ya rock climbing never fails to make my day. :):):) It has always been about sadness for the past few weeks. Syahirah, will you smile? The question is, how to? When everything in your life seems so complicated and messed up. I hate the situation I am in right now. I hate being single. I swear to god I hate it alot! Some say, you stay single to mingle so that you can find the right person. fuck it! It's all up to the individual. I would rather be in a r/s, stay faithful with just 1 guy, go through thick and thin together, happy and cry together rather than to mingle with so many people and feels so tak tentu arah. I seriously hate it. But with whom can I be faithful with? Things are still complicated as how it is. I miss you, so teribly. Mohd Shahrin Bin Md Ali. I miss you so much. I miss those nonsensical times we had. I miss digging your ear and you would go laughing because it's ticklish. Then, I would laughed at you and goes " eeeewww...tengok taik telinger u ". haha! I never thought that looking back at those happy moments can make me cry. :/ I miss you, can I? And I still love you. Always have and always will. I miss you, so dearly. I need you back in my life. 7:52 AM Yours truly.	Yours Truly Syahirah. 18. Republic Poly. Pharmaceutical Science. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day. And oh, don't forget to fly. Music Playlist at MixPod.com Click please Links Beads&Ribbons Gf Raudhah Gf Nadz Gf Izzi Gf Leeyan Gf Sasha Gf Anisah Zelah Mr Ng Fatin kidd Andy ShaSha Hasnim Hazirah Lala Parker Sissy Syuu Abg Isk Afiq Heedayah Hyraah Shasha Rockstar Atiqah kasha amira rp daniel rp Syahidah rp Syuee rp Salim rp Nadhirah chiron Atikah chiron Shaihah chiron Nazahah chiron Alif Hakim dhilah sue rp luqman hakim tiqsy Nizzam Abby Ulfah Jolene Aishah Archives May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 Credits Biggest credit: the bikini boy Editor: JollyPills/:B