A Big Dreamer

Monday, December 31, 2007

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2007 is coming to an end real soon.

I still couldn't believe it's ending so fast.

I will definitely miss ALL those good memories

I had especially during school time!! I fcuking

miss school!! I miss the lesson, school song, national

anthem, canteen food,p.e lesson & a lot more. Oh ya,

I miss art lesson the most!! I miss doing fashion design!

A lot of things happened in the year of 2007.

I really couldnt list it down here or it can never end.

The biggest event of the year is of course, O LEVEL.

I can really remember how nervous I was when I first

took my chemistry paper. My heart was beating very

fast & my palm were sweating. I go through a lot of

pressure moments during 2007, really! I swear!!!

Dearest Boyfriend,

I can still remember the day when we

first took our picture together. we wore white

& we were at the Vivo City. First destination was

the Peninsula Plaza. You accompanied me to buy

my black skinny jeans. ~haaaaaaaa. & then we proceed

to Vivo City rooftop. ehem ehem.. & that point of time,

we were still friends right ??? haaahaaaa.

so here's our very first picture together.

Our secong picture was when you fetched me

from my work place. You told me that you will

be wearing all white but ended up wearing all

black. I can still remember how SHOCKED I was

to see you right infront of the main door, I was carrying clothes

where I stop and looked at you! ~haaaaaaa.

We wanted to have our dinner together at Marina Square

but we really couldn't figure out how to go there by

bus. I tried calling Nadz hundreds of time but no response

from her. Then we decided to walk but cancelled!!

we waste most of our time at the bus stop waiting

for bus 700 & at last, it came. We had our lunched & then

proceed to the esplanade and had our talking session.

I really had soo much fun with you hunnie..

Boyfriend, remember West Coast Park ??

~haaaaaaa. We bought a lot of junk foods!

From bp we took bus straight to west coast park.

That was the first time where you kissed me in OUR PICTURE.

It started to rain when we then decide to go SCIENCE CENTRE!

It was really cool and fun and that's when I fed you

Mcdonald Shaker Fries!!! Nice right? nice right ???

You look Cool in that black specs.

~haaaa. I dont think I can finish if I describe

every picture in details. I can go bananas I tell you.

The first outing together with my sister & bf.

The day where I introduced you to my HOMETOWN.

and not forgetting, it was the day where we failed

to find the Singapore National Musuem. We went to

the national library instead, as usual. ~haaaaaa.

Bace buku war kan kiter???? Before that we read

religious book. ~haaaaaaa. cool cool...

And and finally, our wish came true!

That is to go cycling at East Coast Park.

Despite the fact that it was raining cats & dogs, we

still continued cycling. A looooooong cycling I must say!

Celebrating our First Monthsary kan ???? ~heeee.

My resolution for the year 2008.

1) To be a good daughter.

2) To study very hard.

3) To be independent.

4) To be a good girlfriend to my boyfriend.

& A LOT MORE!!!!!

Goodbye 2007 and Welcome 2008!!!

Im looking forward to start a brand new life

with you hunnie!!! Mwahs Mwahs!!!

5:59 AM
Yours truly.

2007 is coming to an end real soon.

I still couldn't believe it's ending so fast.

I will definitely miss ALL those good memories

I had especially during school time!! I fcuking

miss school!! I miss the lesson, school song, national

anthem, canteen food,p.e lesson & a lot more. Oh ya,

I miss art lesson the most!! I miss doing fashion design!

A lot of things happened in the year of 2007.

I really couldnt list it down here or it can never end.

The biggest event of the year is of course, O LEVEL.

I can really remember how nervous I was when I first

took my chemistry paper. My heart was beating very

fast & my palm were sweating. I go through a lot of

pressure moments during 2007, really! I swear!!!

Dearest Boyfriend,

I can still remember the day when we

first took our picture together. we wore white

& we were at the Vivo City. First destination was

the Peninsula Plaza. You accompanied me to buy

my black skinny jeans. ~haaaaaaaa. & then we proceed

to Vivo City rooftop. ehem ehem.. & that point of time,

we were still friends right ??? haaahaaaa.

so here's our very first picture together.

Our secong picture was when you fetched me

from my work place. You told me that you will

be wearing all white but ended up wearing all

black. I can still remember how SHOCKED I was

to see you right infront of the main door, I was carrying clothes

where I stop and looked at you! ~haaaaaaa.

We wanted to have our dinner together at Marina Square

but we really couldn't figure out how to go there by

bus. I tried calling Nadz hundreds of time but no response

from her. Then we decided to walk but cancelled!!

we waste most of our time at the bus stop waiting

for bus 700 & at last, it came. We had our lunched & then

proceed to the esplanade and had our talking session.

I really had soo much fun with you hunnie..

Boyfriend, remember West Coast Park ??

~haaaaaaa. We bought a lot of junk foods!

From bp we took bus straight to west coast park.

That was the first time where you kissed me in OUR PICTURE.

It started to rain when we then decide to go SCIENCE CENTRE!

It was really cool and fun and that's when I fed you

Mcdonald Shaker Fries!!! Nice right? nice right ???

You look Cool in that black specs.

~haaaa. I dont think I can finish if I describe

every picture in details. I can go bananas I tell you.

The first outing together with my sister & bf.

The day where I introduced you to my HOMETOWN.

and not forgetting, it was the day where we failed

to find the Singapore National Musuem. We went to

the national library instead, as usual. ~haaaaaa.

Bace buku war kan kiter???? Before that we read

religious book. ~haaaaaaa. cool cool...

And and finally, our wish came true!

That is to go cycling at East Coast Park.

Despite the fact that it was raining cats & dogs, we

still continued cycling. A looooooong cycling I must say!

Celebrating our First Monthsary kan ???? ~heeee.

My resolution for the year 2008.

1) To be a good daughter.

2) To study very hard.

3) To be independent.

4) To be a good girlfriend to my boyfriend.

& A LOT MORE!!!!!

Goodbye 2007 and Welcome 2008!!!

Im looking forward to start a brand new life

with you hunnie!!! Mwahs Mwahs!!!

5:59 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, December 30, 2007

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If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?
If I couldn't feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I'd be wishing you were here
To be everything that I'd be looking for
I don't wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
'Cause Lord only knows another

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you'll love me
Love me like you'll never see me again

7:35 AM
Yours truly.

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I was frustrated just now.

I was frustrated at myself.

But when I'm back at home, & watched

Love is Cinta & Laila Isabella..

My heart just soften, really!!!

Deareast D,

Im sorry if I get a lil bit angry just now.

I couldn't really control my emotions.

So many things were on my mind, I swear!

So I got a little mad & sad at the same time.

IM SORRY, BOYFRIEND.

Boyfriend,

I just want you to know that

YOU are very MEANINGFUL to me.

Like how the pic says it all..

" EVEN HEAVEN IS HELL WITHOUT YOU "

You really mean a lot to me.

Only god knows how much I really Love you hunn.

Keep me safe while I sleep will ya ??

Give me your hand and I will show you

what does the fairy tale mean by saying

" Happily Ever After "

Im soo in love with you!!!!

6:39 AM
Yours truly.

I was frustrated just now.

I was frustrated at myself.

But when I'm back at home, & watched

Love is Cinta & Laila Isabella..

My heart just soften, really!!!

Deareast D,

Im sorry if I get a lil bit angry just now.

I couldn't really control my emotions.

So many things were on my mind, I swear!

So I got a little mad & sad at the same time.

IM SORRY, BOYFRIEND.

Boyfriend,

I just want you to know that

YOU are very MEANINGFUL to me.

Like how the pic says it all..

" EVEN HEAVEN IS HELL WITHOUT YOU "

You really mean a lot to me.

Only god knows how much I really Love you hunn.

Keep me safe while I sleep will ya ??

Give me your hand and I will show you

what does the fairy tale mean by saying

" Happily Ever After "

Im soo in love with you!!!!

6:39 AM
Yours truly.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

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Happy 1st Monthsary to US.

Dearest "D", chey chey..Dah tukar nick plak ehk??

I had so much fun with you today dearest, I Swear!!

The BESTEST monthsary I've had!! No kidding yeahs.

Dicipta Khas buatmu..Shahrin-ku.

SHAHRIN-KU

Pabila ku tenungmu..

Membawa Cahaya..

Pabila ku rindumu..

Cintaku terserlah...

(CHORUS)

Akanku memberi,

segala harapan...

untuk cintak kita yg suci.

Akanku membawa,

setiap memori bersama..

Oh Shahrinku, ku cintamu.

Kau selalu dihatiku..

Jangan menangis sayang..

Akanku BERJANJI..

Ku sayang kamu...

Kau slalu dihatiku,

Di setiap waktu..

Janganlah kau bersedih

Ku masih di sini..

( CHORUS)

Tolong dengar kataku

Ku perlukan mu...

Tanpamu kekasih..ooh.

Hidupku tidak bererti...

The day at East Coast Park with D was so beautiful.

We went cycling together & we rent the double bike.

D was at the front while I'm at the back. ~haaaa.

( amek kesempatan nak rest lau penat, biar dier kayuh sorng2)

From East Coast Park till CHANGI okehh...

We were shagged but still we persevered on yeah..

The sky was grey and soon it started to rain..

Raining bcos " Pak Cik Rain was ther "

( sempat jamah main air hujan jap kan D ?? )

After the day at ECP, we proceed to Lau Pa sat to have

my stomache filled with Chicken Fried Rice. ( eeewww!!! )

I then met up with dearest Nadz & Izzi. I MISS THEM A LOT!!

Oh well, Momsie sound system start already.

I have to go.. Oh man!!!

OK BYE.

I LOVE MY "D"

7:24 AM
Yours truly.

Happy 1st Monthsary to US.

Dearest "D", chey chey..Dah tukar nick plak ehk??

I had so much fun with you today dearest, I Swear!!

The BESTEST monthsary I've had!! No kidding yeahs.

Dicipta Khas buatmu..Shahrin-ku.

SHAHRIN-KU

Pabila ku tenungmu..

Membawa Cahaya..

Pabila ku rindumu..

Cintaku terserlah...

(CHORUS)

Akanku memberi,

segala harapan...

untuk cintak kita yg suci.

Akanku membawa,

setiap memori bersama..

Oh Shahrinku, ku cintamu.

Kau selalu dihatiku..

Jangan menangis sayang..

Akanku BERJANJI..

Ku sayang kamu...

Kau slalu dihatiku,

Di setiap waktu..

Janganlah kau bersedih

Ku masih di sini..

( CHORUS)

Tolong dengar kataku

Ku perlukan mu...

Tanpamu kekasih..ooh.

Hidupku tidak bererti...

The day at East Coast Park with D was so beautiful.

We went cycling together & we rent the double bike.

D was at the front while I'm at the back. ~haaaa.

( amek kesempatan nak rest lau penat, biar dier kayuh sorng2)

From East Coast Park till CHANGI okehh...

We were shagged but still we persevered on yeah..

The sky was grey and soon it started to rain..

Raining bcos " Pak Cik Rain was ther "

( sempat jamah main air hujan jap kan D ?? )

After the day at ECP, we proceed to Lau Pa sat to have

my stomache filled with Chicken Fried Rice. ( eeewww!!! )

I then met up with dearest Nadz & Izzi. I MISS THEM A LOT!!

Oh well, Momsie sound system start already.

I have to go.. Oh man!!!

OK BYE.

I LOVE MY "D"

7:24 AM
Yours truly.

Friday, December 28, 2007

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Okehh nie gambar ader siket " dah lamer "

Terluper nak upload pat blog laah dat time so here it is.

This was when Izzi, Ernie, Azman & myself sent resign

letter to our Manager. I was half hearted to enter the

outlet laah. Mcm paiseh seii, masok kasi surat brenti!

Izzi, Nadz, Shyrawr & Ernie.

Oh well, today was quite a boring day for me.
Mom went out as early as 12, i think. She went over
to Cik Ani's crib and then off to the hospital. Sister
went out as early as 10 i think. She went to meet her friend
& then off to meet her boyfriend. AT 2.30 pm later, she went back
home together with her boyfriend. ~haaaaaa. They were feeling
green today. " Sepasan baju hijau ". They wore my fav colour!!
Met up with Nurul, Achok and Shafiq at the Jurong East bus station.
The day at the hospital was a- okay. I got to eat my fav desert again!!
Nothing much to say anyway. I can't wait to meet bf 2morrow.
Fun Fun day tomorrow yeah.. till here then.

6:24 AM
Yours truly.

Okehh nie gambar ader siket " dah lamer "

Terluper nak upload pat blog laah dat time so here it is.

This was when Izzi, Ernie, Azman & myself sent resign

letter to our Manager. I was half hearted to enter the

outlet laah. Mcm paiseh seii, masok kasi surat brenti!

Izzi, Nadz, Shyrawr & Ernie.

6:24 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

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I HATE HOLIDAYS.

I am feeling exhausted, really. Woke up early in the morning & had a bathed.

I told mum that I will be going out later in the afternoon to meet Gf Nadz

to take my pants from her. before meeting Nadz, I met up with dearest bf.

I Need Him & I Miss Him. Bf & me waited for Gf Nadz at one of the block

near Petir Lrt. Oh Nadz, I really miss you like a lot seii. I had a great chat

with her and we were exchanging songs through bluetooth. ~haaa. ILY Nadz.

We then parted ways. Nadz went over to her grandma's crib while bf & me

when to the Greendrige Shooping Mall. We went to tha Banquet & get

ourselves Muay Chee. Bf's lil bro came down later on & he had a carrot

cake for himself. Bf..Please don't be mad at me but I have to say that your

little brother is very cute laahh. When I looked at him, I can see you. ~haa.

He resembles you lahh bf. I had fun chatting with kirin (bf's lil bro's nick).

Oh well, we shall go out together again yeahsss. Maybe, catch some movie?

Haizz, I can say that Im falling apart right now but still going strong.

I'm exhausted but who cares anyway. As long as I can see my grandma.

Besides that, I'm stress. Couldn't describe why I'm stress but I can feel

the tense. Im unpredictable lately. I can be laughing and I could be sad &

mood swing in a couple of hours later. Im in need of money. I really want to

help my dad and my cousins. I want to work but where?? I thought of working

at the Taman Jurong Pizza Hut but to think of it, I don't think it's worth it.

Through out this looooong & booring holidays, I have learned a lot.

I learned so many things that I cannot wait to start a brand new

life in 2008. I cannot wait to get my O level results. No matter how

bad or good my results is, I know where I'm going & I know what I

want to do. What I know is that, education is very inportant for me.

So, I'm going to work real hard after getting my results. I will be very

happy if my results are qualified for Polytechnics. * Praying very hard*.

But if ( touch wood, touch wood ) my results did not meet the criteria to

be in Polytechnics, I'm thinking of taking Private Diploma & work my arse off

or worst comes to worst, going ITE high nitec, study real hard & proceed to

Polytechnics. Phew, a lot of things are going through in my mind right now.

1) Thinking of my grandmother & our family&cousins problems.

2) Thinking of where to earned money & where to work ??

3) Will my grandmother be ok ???

4) How can I spend my Holidays meaningfully.

& a lot more laahh. Urrgh!!!

OK SHUT.

I've said my piece.

6:50 AM
Yours truly.