A Big Dreamer

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

No doubt, I'm going to keep that smile going on but at the same

time, I wish......

Boo! Alrighty, the day was well spend with girlfriends. First up, I met with sasha over at Lot 1. Initial plan was to hunt for job but after so much of consideration, it was cancelled. So we just walked around Lot 1 and read magazines at the library. haha! Sasha shared something with me and gosh, some people are so eeeeeeeeeeew!! Mas then met us at the mrt control station and off to republic poly. I promised them that I'll take them there for a chilling session and so, my promise isn't in the dark. hahaha! Once reach, headed to trcc artbites for our lunch. All the 3 of us were hungry monsters. We had spagetti with tomato base yummy!! While eating, we chatted and laughed and took pictures. Awhile later, nadz joined us for 45 minutes. haha! She had her ig and was on break so that's why she joined us. :) Once Nadz 45 minutes expired, the 3 of us headed to the lib while nadz to her ig (cca). I borrowed another 3 dvd from the school library. haha! 1) Coach carter, 2) Nutrition and Growth and 3) Life in the Undergrowth. :D We planned to play board games but all the board games were in total mess. Pfffft! Ended up, we just talked, webcammed and surf the net. It was 5.15pm and we decided to go off. The library was closing in another 15 more minutes. Went to the toilet and off to woodland mrt. By then, we parted ways.

It's 30th December today. Tomorrow is 31st December and on Monday, 2009 leave us. It has been a roller coaster ride for me this year. I've been there and done that. School was tough with new modules coming in. Physics and Maths are the most loathing modules. I've dealt with so much of stress and emotions because most of my classmates had physics background, unlike me. Apart from that, I was grouped with genius brains. I felt left behind. Other than than school, life has been different for me this year. Many things has change and coping with it is tough. But what's life without changes. Many mistakes were made and at the same time, many lessons were learnt. With all the mistakes I made, I hope 2010 will be a better year for me. I'm sad and excited at the same time. I'm sad because the beautiful moments that happened this year are going to be keep as memories. When I look back later on, tears are going to start rolling to my cheeks but I'll end smilling because I know everything happens for a reason. Some reason are obvious while some still left clueless. I'm greatful enough that I'm still right here, living my life. I am once a kid, now I'm a teenager and soon, I'll be an adult. Some people say, being a kid is great because nothing worries you while some people say, they can't wait to get old because life would be much more exciting. But I'll say, it isn't about my age.. it's about how I live my life.

2010, I want to look at things in a positive way. Though I might stumble upon stones someday, that is one of my new year resolution that I'm going to work hard for it. I have so many resolutions coming up in my list but I shall keep it right here with me. It's not that I don't want to share but I know it's safer with me. :) And also, I have a wish for year 2010. I wish that my first wish for 2010 will come true. :) What's my first wish? Go figure. hahahaha!!!! To those who has achieved happiness this year, congratulations. For those who don't, 2010 awaits you. :)Happiness comes from yourself, not others. That is what I believe. So don't be sad if you can't be happy, I'm sure everything is going to be ok.. but if it doesn't, it's not over yet. :)

With this, Happy New Year in Advance earthlings. :)

4:51 AM
Yours truly.

Monday, December 28, 2009

A little random video from the sisters. ;)

It's tuesday today. I was supposed to meet my friends over at school for our maths lesson but I overslept. How great is that. Apart from that, I also forgot that there's maths lesson today. hah! I hate maths anyway. :) Dad's working. Mom and the little rascals are out to visit the doctor. I just finished watching HOUSE a few minutes ago with sissy. Whenever I watch it, I somehow feel motivated. :) Alright, enough about House. Oh, my baby cici just bathed just now. I bathed her and she likes the warm water. Now, she's very very clean. :D

You know, I believe that we can't always let fate decide everything when all we do is nothing, not even trying. That is for lazy people. You'll let fate decide only when you've tried your best. For example, sitting for an exam. You give 101% for the paper and you don't leave any questions behind. You double check the paper and make sure there's minimum number of mistakes. You check your workings and make sure that 100 + 100 = 200, instead off 201. Once done with everything and you hand in your paper, that is when you let your hard work and fate decide whether you're gonna pass or fail. You can't just sit for an exam, sleep for an hour, randomly choose the easy questions and answer it 50-50, no double check of workings and answers and then say.. " I'll let fate decide ". That's bullshit. Same goes for life be it in a friendship, relationship or whatsoever. You can't depend on fate 100%. Another example, a cancer patient. Your mindset will tell you that you're gonna die sooner or later and the next thing you do is to weep, lock yourself in the room and let fate decide whether you're gonna live or die. =.= Where's the spirit? Where's the fire in your eyes? I just think giving up is never the solution. Well, that's what I thought. Quitters never win and Winners never quit but if you never quit and you don't win, that means you're a moron. hahaha! no lah, maybe you don't put enough effort. That's all. Just don't quit. :)
To you, I hope you know why I hate to give up and why I don't really support the phrase " let fate decide eveything ". :)
Alright, I better find something better to do now. Oh ya, I want to cook my favourite potato salad. yummy yum yum! Mom, hurry home and bring back the potatoes pleasseeeeeee. Off for another episode of house. Toodles!

11:27 PM
Yours truly.

Headed to school with Aishah and Sha today. Kel buay. hahahaha! We had our student helpers briefing for the Republic Open house. Briefing commenced at 2. Before this, they stated that the briefing was from 2 - 5pm but guess what, by 2.45.. everything ended already. What the tooooo!! Waste my ez link card only. =.= Oh well, we stayed behind and volunteer ourselves for student leader instead. haha! Once done, me and Sha stayed in school till 7pm. :) We watched HOUSE. I swear to god it's addictive. Before we left, I borrowed 3 dvd from the school library. I borrowed national geographic and animal planet. haha! kental, I know. But I like whaaat! :)

I have 1 thing to chase. I want to chase my dreams. But what's that phrase without an action yeah? Sometimes I wonder.. what's the point of wrtting down your dreams here when people will start talking " alah... bobual jek. Habuk pon tkder ". haha! Easy say, to hell with those people who say that. ;) Just believe in yourself. It's your dreams anyway, not them. :)

Okiee dokie, I want to continue watching HOUSE. For those who don't know what is HOUSE, go figure. :)

sarang hae yo.

5:18 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

26th December ( Yesterday =.= )

Sissy and myself rot at home yesterday. Parents and lil brother went for wedding ceremony. I woke up and watched antm cycle 13. I watched it in the morning up till late in the afternoon. At noon, parents called and asked us to go Lot 1 because they want to buy new spec for sissy. So yeah, took the mrt and met them there. Bla bla bla.. I was hungry because mom didn't cook and I pleaded mom for food. haha! And.. I bought myself fillet 'o' fish meal. buuuuurp!!!! Once everything done, headed back home. hehh!! I thought parents were like going to bring us out or something but pfffft!! Oh well, nevermind. Around 7pm plus, kak zelah texted me and asked me to head to Shahrin's house for her birthday celebration. So yeah, it has been quite a while since I last met his parents and of course, celebrating birthday together like we used to. :) Omg I miss their cats!! Aaaaaaw, I feel the love once again. Shahrin's mom bought secret recipe cake for kak zelah and it was AWESOME!! but I can't finish it because I had a very big portion and so does everyone. Pictures are at their camera. I'll promise to upload them once I get hold of the pictures. Once done with cake cutting, we ate and watched horror movie. Kinda scary but it does not scared the wits out of me. :P It was 10pm already so I headed home. Thanks Shahrin for sending me back home. I had an awesome day with them yesterday. *smileeeeeeeeeeeee.

27th December ( Today =.= )

It's a sister day out today. haha!! Headed to somewhere to buy my stuff. Afterwhich, we walked to central shopping mall located at clark quay. Again, parents did bring us out today because they have wedding ceremony to attend. hahahahahaha! Here goes my convo with mom

me: saje jek jalan2.. abeh ibu ngn ayah tk nak bwk kiter kuar jalan2.

ibu: klau ajak kamu jln nnti ibu ngn ayah kene kluar duit. Ade jek kamu nak

blanje.. mcm last week kat lot one beli sluar kat giordano. Klau every week

kluar, bankrupt lah ayah. haha

me: alah.. bukan hari2 aper. Ni blanjer makan da cukop bgs :P

So yeah, we reached home at 7.15pm. 45 minutes to Singapore Idol. hahaha! And now, it's the result show. I can't wait.. and of course, I support SEZAIRIIIIIIIIII!!!!! Alright, I want to watch the result show. Toooodles!

6:10 AM
Yours truly.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

OUT WITH SISSY BABBYYYY. :)

Will post a proper entry once I get back wookie dokie?

TOODLES.

11:38 PM
Yours truly.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

25th December 2009

" HOHOHO.. Merry X'mas. :P "

Alright, I have no idea why I can't update today's post under New Post. So, I've decided to post today's entry via yesterday's post. Get it? Nevermind. =.=

Putting that aside. Family and I went to aunt's crib today as promised. We went out as early as 11.30am. Headed to ulfah's crib first and than off to aunt su's crib. Reached there around 2pm plus. Once reached, I saw plenty of scrumptious foods on the table. There were canadian pizza, kfc, fruits, mee rebus, banana cheese muffin, epok-epok sayur, dadeh and so much more! I went crazy over the dishes okaay!! And so, I had 1 sliced of pizza, 1 piece of kfc chicken and 1 banana cheese muffin at first. sluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurp and burrrrrrp! :D After which, we watched quite a number of movies. First was paranormal activity, followed by ong bak 2 and last but not least.. 2012. hehh! Off all the 3 movies that I watched today, guess which one I prefer?? haha. Those who guessed paranormal activity.. TETT!!! wrong! And those who guessed 2012.. TETT!! also wrong! hahaha.. So I bet you guys should know which one I prefer. yes baby!! Ong bak 2! :) I've always love action movie especially fighting scene. For those who knows me well, they'll know why. hahaha! I had a great day with cousins today. Many came and I'm glad. :D And oh, I was thinking about my cici all day. I was wondering what cici's doing and is she lonely and stuff. :(

Honestly, I've never felt like this before. I've had a hamster, tortoise, chicks, parrots as my pet back then but I've never cared so much about them like how I've cared for my baby cici. I swear to Allah I love cici. I've never feel this so much love towards a pet. Aaaaw cici, Ily. And I call my cici BABY!!!! :) Baby is a very manje cat.

Okay, it SATURDAY tomorrow. Urrghh.. I hate it when I've got this feeling that I'll be rotting at home on SATURDAY! eeeeeeik! I don't like. C'mon man! It's SATURDAY! Usually, people will go out with friends or family. Family is going for wedding ceremony tomorrow and parents are going without me because dad said so. hehh! I hate it.. like alot. Someone!! Ask me out pls! =.=

OK BYE! hmmph!

First, look at my dearest and manje cici. ^^ aaaaw, tido pon nak kene ader bantal ngn blanket. Tido pat atas katil lagik. Ngader2 kan ini kucing. hahahaha! :)

So yeah, headed to bpp today. I was supposed to meet kak zelah earlier in the afternoon but she went out so I met her around 7pm plus instead. So before I met her, slacked my nice ass at pondok. It has been quite awhile since I sat there. Miss those times huh. hahaha! I reached at 5pm plus. Finally, I got to meet kirin. Aaaaaaw, rindu dier okay. :) We played taiti and stress. And it's my very first time winning shahrin. wooohooooo!!!! Either I've improved or he's lacking of skill. hahaha! Don't angry ahh.. play play only. But still, I WON!!!!! and he had so many cards left with him. nyeahahahaha... woah, it sure does feel so good to win him. eeeik!!!! By 7pm ish, kak zelah and abg izuan came. Took the stuff from her and she bought me this cute green umbrella pen from KL. Thanks kak zelah! I am so not going to use it because its too cute to be used! :D And oh, finally.. you're 19. hehehe.. mwahs!!! Anyway, thanks to everyone for making today happen and of course thanks to shahrin too. :)

And... HOHOHO.. merry christmas!! I wish it was snowing in Singapore. hahas! Well, will be going to aunt's crib tomorrow. There'll be pizza, kfc and many more. Woooots! I cannot wait for the pizza because I've been craving for that since last week. :D yummy yum yum.

Alright, toodles earthlings. :)

5:53 AM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

" I have a dark brown skin colour. =.= "

Sasha and myself were supposed to meet at 12pm for job hunting but I canceled it. I swear to god I was so darn lazy to seek jobs today. =.= But still, we met at 3pm to slack our ass off. :) So there's me, sasha and mas. We headed to starbucks and rot there. haha! Well, not literally rotting. How can we rot when there's so many things to talk about! yeah yeah?? haha! So I bought chocolate cream chip for myself. Finally! I got to drink starbucks! Ooh it feels sooo good! After so much of talking at the Starbucks, we headed to sasha's block and slack for the 2nd round! After which, headed back to bpp and have our dinner at mc donalds. Once done, home sweet home. :) So, it's thursday tomorrow and guess what? I am intending to go swimming again for lapse. hahaha! I know! I am crazy! I'm already dark enough for a girl who was given a named Syahirah. hahaha! But hey, it's not going to be permanent what! My skin colour will get back to normal, correct? Please tell me I'm right! :D Anywayss... I will be meeting kak zelah tomorrow. I need to take something from her. :) Anyone wanna slack with me after that?? haha! tk tau malu! Well. christmas falls on this friday. Family and I will be heading to aunt's crib for some celebration. Aunt decided to have a mini celebration and of course, I can't wait! Cousins will be there and there will be FOOOOOOOOOOOOD PARTY!!! yummy yum yum! :)

Okay, school's reopen on 4th of January. I have 12 more days left, to be exact. =.= And once school starts, I have micro and cell biology test. pfffft!!! How great is that? And next week is going to be a boring week for me. 1st, I am cashless. 2nd, I need to mug for test. 3rd, no money means cannot go out often. :( I hate to ask my parents for money okay.

Putting that aside, I have 2 goals right now in my mind. And I am sticking on to this goals like superglue. Well, it's easy said than done huh. Correct?? Anyway, let me be the one to worry about it but I will do my best in attaining these goals of mine. ;) 2009 is coming to an end soon. It has been a great year for me. So much of bittersweet memories. Well, I hope 2010 is going to be even a better year for me. Alright, till here earthlings.

4:38 AM
Yours truly.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

22nd December 2009

Another day spend with family and cousins at cck swimming complex. Mom woke us up at 9.30 am but sissy and myself just couldn't opened our eyes! hehh! We were supposed to meet cousins at 10am. =.= So obviously, we were late. haha! Sorry cousins. :) So, we took bus 307 instead of walking. I have no idea why we took the bus instead of walking because as far as I am concern, the cck swimming complex wasn't that far. Oh well, nevermind. Despite the fact of my sun burn at my shoulder and my face, I still went for a swim. =.= I realised I am getting darker. urrgh!!

Alright, putting that aside. Im going for a job hunting tomorrow with sasha and mas. I seriously need a part time job! Okaaaaaay.. bye!

5:45 AM
Yours truly.

Monday, December 21, 2009

21st December 2009

Yeearp! As promised, went to sentosa with the study trip gang. Obviously, not all could make it. BUT, quantity doesn't matter. :) I swear to god I had fun with them. Let me list down the activities we did through out the whole day. We reached around 11 plus, I think. Before we headed to tanjong beach, we stop by at pahlawan and bought ice cup for our drinks. Once done, headed to tanjong beach via tram. I don't know why but I saw many men outing there. haha! So, once reached, we put our stuff and chill first. Shai, syu and myself started to kick ball here and there. Than the rest joined. Then, we hit the sea babey! I swear to god the sea was super freaking cold.. but I like aaah. So refreshing. We played monkey with the green ball we bougt at 7 11. haha! After which, headed back to our hut and played taiti and 7 diamond. Ate our chips, listened to songs.. relaxing. Once done with that, we played rounders. Tiring but fun! It has been so long since we all last exercise, the reason why we were all phanting so hard. haha! Done with that, we hit the sea again. We saw some cheerleader group doing some backflip and whatsoever. So we tried! HAHAHA! Shasha and syu became the base person while Im the one doing the back flip. hahahahaha. It's very very funny but fun ahh.. We did it like so many times just as to have a perfect backflip from me. haha! Than I tried front flip but it seems funny. bla bla bla.. It's 4pm already and we made our way back to pahlawan beach and washed up. We intended to catch the animal enclosure show at 5pm but us being us, we were late. Satu2 mandi mcm tak mandi for 1 week. Done with everything, we walked to the ludge ride. Thought of riding it but naaah, too expensive. Then we thought of cycling but it's closing soon so we gave it a miss too. Took sky train back to vivo and had our dinner together and banquet. After which, parted ways and home sweet home. More photos at facebook and I'm still waiting for the pictures and video from suhana. :) To cap it all off, I had a great time today with them. Love you guyssssss!!!

And now, my back hurts! Thanks to sun burn. =.= Apart from that, I'll be going swimming tomorrow with family and cousin. haha! I planned it. Im intending to do lapse there.. building up my muscles and getting myself all fit again. hahaha! Okay, I shall end it here. Im dead beat!

Toodles.

5:10 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

20th December 2009

It's sunday today and sunday means family day out. :) Family and I went to Lot 1 together with aunt and cousin Ulfah. My little brother wanted to get himself a pair of school shoe and my cousins wanted to get herself her school stuff. Maklumlah, da nak start skolah. haha! And oh, dad bought for me two bottoms from giordano. Thanks dad!!!! I love you laaah! hahahaha.. Once done, we headed to masjid al-khair for our asar prayer. After which, proceed to toa payoh for another round of shopping. This time round, I bought myself a green jacket and I love it! It cost me $10. :D Oh, we had our dinner at cck park. Once done shopping at toa payoh, we went to masjid muhajirin for our maghrib prayer. We then send aunt and cousin home and after which, home sweet home! I'll be going sentosa tomorrow with the study trip gang. See you guys tomorrow bebey!!! And maybe, will be meeting mom, sissy, lil bro, aunt and cousin again after that. :) Alright, did I mention I went for a chalet last friday? haha! Below were some of the pictures. I lazy to upload the rest.

Chalet = Fun :)

Thanks sue and syahidah for coming. I had loads of fun. See you girls soon!!!

And oh, I have a great dad. Though he might be very annoying at times, he is still the best dad for me. No one could have ever replace him because he's one in a milliion. His words make sense. And dad, if you think I ain't listening to your advise.. you're wrong. :) The truth is, I listen to every words you said and I keep it in my heart and brain for I know it will help me through my life journey. Thanks dad for loving me, and also... I love my mommy and my lil brother and also my lil sissy. They can never be replace. Never. I love my family like double lots okaaay!! Alright.

Toodles!

6:24 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Woooopy dooo! So I met my girls early in the morning at bpp. We had to sort out some stuffs for tomorrow's chalet. So once done, we brought all the stuffs we bought at ntuc and put it at sasha's house. Meeting the rest at sasha's crib tomorrow at 11am. Jangan lmbat okay girls. :) After which, went back home. I had nothing to do so I made some hand made clutch and umbrella's bag. hahahaha! ^^ above are the pictures. Mom taught me how to use the sewing machine and then I'm all set and ready to create. haha! Today is awal muharram for muslim calendar. :) Time flies so fast yeah? In just a blink of an eye, it is going to be 2010 already. Time, fly slower please.

Alright, I should be going and pack all my stuff for tomorrow. See you girls tomorrow baby!

4:14 AM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Helloooooo earthlings. How have you been? Enjoying the holidays? hahaha! I was supposed to go sec school for the softball friendly match between juniors and seniors but it was postpone to Friday. And that clearly means that I can't attend it because I'll be having a chalet. How sad laaaah!!! :( But it's okay. Instead of rotting at home, I went out with kak zelah. Met her at cck and took bus 190 to plaza sing. We bought some stuffs and then went back to kak zelah's place for some session. hahaha! I had fun with her. Catching up with each other's life. :) And oh, kak zelah.. you have a chilling home laaaaah! So spacious and relaxing. Mcm hari2 gitu nak lepak saner eyyy. hahahahaha. Once done with everything, I left her crib at around uhhmmm.. 7 plus, I think. Walked to petir lrt and off home. Before heading home, I went to yew tee point and bought myself hairband and a $10 t-shirt. *smileeeeeeeee. I'll be meeting the gfs tomorrow. Will be discussing what to bring and stuff for the chalet. I cannot waaaaaait! * kening naek! :D

Alright, other than that. Life has been great as usual. :) Toodles.

5:13 AM
Yours truly.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Goodnight earthlings. :)

7:45 AM
Yours truly.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Oh yes, new book and new chapter. Some say we should not cry because it over, but we must smile because it happened. The truth is, it took a lot of strength to smile again. :) And yeah, I'm back smilling. Thanks to my walking PD (personal diary) who motivated me and keep me occupy with texts and calls. Thank you PD, I'll never forget your kindness. :)

Last day of school today. :D Ended school with chemistry UT. So the girls and myself went to the school library to mug for chem UT instead of heading to maths class. Eversince maths class falls on Monday, I never like going to school. haha! Trust me, I don't like the thoughts of starting my weekdays with maths. =.= eeeew! Anyways, it's over already. Holiday people!!! I will be going to aunt house tomorrow with the family. Heading to sec school on wednesday for softball. They are having friendly match. Seniors vs juniors. Obviously, I fall under the seniors category. I miss softball like a lottt! Meeting the gfs on thursday and then CHALET on friday. woohoooo!!!

Well, I was walking home when I got inspired. In our human life, be it the poor or the rich, old or young..there will be a day or a moment when our heart and our soul get touch. Some heart and soul get touch with the incident that happened to their love ones while some from their own experience and also from the unexpected things that happen in their life. Whats important, that moment will come and change the journey or the perspective of our life. Frequently, it will bring life more meaningful. Sometimes, human are too lazy and easily give up their life to fate. They let fate take over. When failed meeting with fate, we'll tend to blame them. This is not suppose to be happening. Giving up ourself to fate are just an excuses for those people who are lazy and arrogant. That's what I thought. And I've also learnt that happiness and sorrows comes from ourselves. Be it sad or happy, we're the one who decide it. I don't want to live my life in sorrow. Nope! haha! :) I don't think you people out there wants it to right? haha! so smileeeeeeeeeeee.

" People are often unreasonable and self-centered...

Forgive them anyway

If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior moves...

Be kind anyway

If you are honest, people may cheat you..

Be honest anyway

If you find happiness, people may be jealous...

Be happy anyway

The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow...

Do good anyway

Give the world the best you have and it may not seem enough...

Give your best anyway