A Big Dreamer

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

The student leader camp were tiring but fun. The first day of the camp were a lil bit dry but still, fun. We got to play fillers and energizers games. It was awesome! hahaha! Second day of the camp was tiring but again..fun. :) I like the part where the individual school showcase their cheers. I like my school cheer. Simple and Loud. Now, I can't wait for the orientation day. Freshies...get ready to rock you asses!!! :D

So basically, I got up at 9am today and made my way to boyfriend's crib. At 12 noon, we made our way to Funan Centre to collect boyfriend's laptop from hospital. haha! Yea yea, it has been 2 times already. I'm not surprise for the 3rd. haha! After which, took 190 to Chinatown. Had our lunch there and then off to town. By 5pm ish, we're back at bp already. I can't go home late because I have tutoring at 7.30pm. Eversince I commit myself to tutoring, I can't get back home later than 7.30pm. I is so sad right. But it's alright, I have my weekends. :)

Going rock climbing tomorrow and I am so excited. Friday is beads making day with kak zelah and I also can't wait for that. :) I am going to love my Thursday and Friday. Hopefully, my Saturday is going to be lovely too. :) It has been raining in the evening and it's difficult to be outside w/o umbrella. pffft! So not fun okayyy.

All right. Till here earthlings. :)

7:08 AM
Yours truly.

Monday, March 29, 2010

THE SHOE THAT I'VE BEEN EYEING FOR!!! BUT.....

It has pig lining. ;( So, I have to give it a miss. I is so sad!

BOYFRIEND!! CAN YOU PLEASE GET THIS SHOE BUT W/O PIG LINING PLEASE!

LIKE PUH-LEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BABBY!!!!! I'm gonna love you triple more

if you manage to get it for me. :) :) :) :)

And b, Happy 28th to the both of us. :*

6:54 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Happy things don't last forever. But why?

Ohh I know why, because this is life. It's imperfect.

ohhh..like that ey? okok =_______________=''

8:33 AM
Yours truly.

Friday, March 26, 2010

I miss my irritating sister who always steal my stuff/mp4/clothes w/o my permission.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Well yeah, I miss her. She's in Cambodia now. Will be back on the 4th of April. I have all the bed to myself. nyeahahaha! But when she's not around, I cannot ask " dik, baju ni dgn ni lawa tak? kene tak? ". hahaha! Her opinion is the best okay! :)

Anyway, it's been awhile since I last post a proper entry. Been very busy with my life at the moment. Filling in every free time of mine with something momentous. I got back my UT 3 results and I am very happy with my chemistry and cognitive. I'm glad I passed my maths because as far as I am concern, I just smacked any formula I knew and apply them. haha! I'm abit dissapointed with my bio results because I expect better grade for it. But it's alright. What's important, I gave all out..excluding physics. HAHAHA!!!! Suddenly, I miss my school. *aaaaww! But no worries, school's starting on the 15th of April. I will be having a day camp on the 29th and then orientation for the year 1 students on the 12th,13th and 14th. Wooooots! I can't wait! I hope this year orientation camp won't be a dissapointment. Last year was a blast, hopefully..this year is blast-er! haha! Got such word? lol!

I just got back from work, about 1 hour ago. I had to handle the outlet alone for an hour and I'm totally scared okay. I'm still a trainee. My senior had to go to IMM outlet for IBT and I had to take care of the store. gulp! hahahahaha! But everything went well..there's so many things for me to do at one go. I had to handle the cashier and then check stocks and then cashier again and then entertain customers. =.= Luckily Kak Jas didn't took her own sweet time at IMM. Phew! At 6pm later, I'll be out again for tutoring at Jurong East. Woah...tired! But I don't mind because this is how I earn extra income for myself. :) Tomorrow is another job interview day. HAHA! yes..you people might think I am crazy but no one knows why I'm doing it. hahahaha! I hope everything goes well for me this year in 2010..especially for my studies. *yikes!!!!!

Alright, I shall off my laptop and take a nap. :) Toodles!

12:55 AM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Annoyed, Disgusted, Heated, Enraged, Infuriated, Wrath

Whatever ANGRY thesaurus you can find, that describe me..for NOW!

FUCK!

7:26 AM
Yours truly.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Finally, I'm back working after 2 weeks of "cuti". haha! It feels a little bit awkward to handle the cashier because I somehow forget how to use it. haha!! Oh well, work went pretty good. It's just that, I had the worst lunch ever. I'm so dissapointed with the food over at Jurong East mrt station. I bought Nasi Goreng Ikan bilis for lunch and it tasted like plain white rice. Plus, it was fcuking oily okay! wth? I once ate their Nasi Campur and it costed me $5 with just Rendang and battered fish. =.= wth kan??? Nevermind, next time..I'll bring home cook food along. :)

Work ended at 2.30pm and I rushed out of the store at met Abg Faiz. We planned to rock climb at Climbers Laboratory, near IMM building. So as usual, I felt so sexcited! hahaha! We started off with some bouldering and after which, we did high wall. I have to admit this, my endurance SUCK TO THE CORE. My palms are now bruised, muscles are aching, but it's all worth it. :) How I wish I could passionately climb, but I don't think I am ready. Reached home at 7.15pm. Abg Faiz tagged along and we had dinner over at my crib. By 8pm, started tutoring Athir. Ended at 9.15am and right now....I am so tired! But it's amazing how my fingers work wonders ey! HAHA!

okok..my eyes are SNORING. hahahah! Toodles!

7:00 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

I hope dad is doing fine there. :(

6:47 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

I AM BACK FROM BALI BBYYYY!!!!!! AND I MISS BALI ALREADY :(

Dreams do come true. :) Back then, I thought I could only envy those people who managed to visit Bali, BUT..not anymore. Alhamdulillah, I were given a great opportunity by my lovely cousins. They told me to join them. :) Thank you guys for everything!! I had lovely times with you people! Visit bali soooooooooooooon!!!! :)

Too many pictures were taken from 4 different cameras. I've yet to compile them. I will compile them once I get hold of EVERYTHING. I reached Singapore at 10am ths morning. I was dead beat, I swear. I don't know how to describe my holidays at bali. If you want to have an insights, do take a look at my sister's blog www.syuuwii.onsugar.com. We have simple "documentaries" for you ppl. HAHAHAHA! okok, I am tired and therefore, good night!

6:35 AM
Yours truly.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Dozens of photos were taken. The rest are at my fb babby. :)

Dad woke me up early in the morning. He asked me to follow him to the cancer centre together with grandma. He wanted me to stay with grandma while he's away for the friday's prayer. So yeah, I followed. Grandma had her blood test first and then sat for some chemo thingy. It was freezing there. I swear my fingers all got so numb. Looking at my grandma, I feel here. Whatever it is, she's one strong woman I've ever met! I'm not saying this just because she's my grandma. But I'm saying this from what I saw. :) Yes, she's very strong! Once done, we drove off to grandma's crib and had our lunch there. Aawww, I always love grandma's food. So yummey okay!!! After which, send grandma to my cousin's crib and then dad send me off to bpp since I wanted to meet my dearest boy (who is soundly sleeping right now. =.=). HAHA! So, we slacked, as usual, with a bunch of funny people. hahahaha! Damn funyy I tell you. My perut mcm nak pecah gitu ktawer bnyk2. hahahaha!!! Then hor, tgh best2 lepak..skali ader satu manusia tu ah dtg. Part tu je, langsong tak best! Macam MOTHER F! hahahahahaha! okok. Shouldn't be so violent hor. hehh! By 8pm, I headed home. I'm going to miss my "ninnabuey pua teng teng!". hahaha! Ouh well, heading for Bali on the 15th. I'm going to miss my cici too! :( Nevermind, I'll be back on the 19th! :) :)

okok, I shall start packing already because I'll be very busy on Sat and Sunday. My cousin is getting married! :) Wonder when it's my turn? HAHH!! Blajar dulu rajin2. :) :) ok bye!

7:27 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

FINALLY!!!!!!!! I got to meet my damn sweet cute chubby hunney bunneh girlfriends!! I miss them like soooooo much! It's been awhile since we last had outing together and today, we managed to meet up and catch up on each other's life. :) yeay! I love it.

Gf Izzi ended her work at 5.30 so at 6pm, I met her at harbourfront bus interchange. :) From there, we walked to vivo and waited for gf nadz at candy empire. hehh! Gf Mas and Gf Sasha bought Ljs for dinner while gf nadz bought burger king. Gf Izzi and myself bought this yummylicious cream puffs. yeahh.. it's so yummy that gf izzi's pants love it too. *inside joke*.

We chilled our sexy ass off at vivo rooftop. We talked and talked and talked and talked. Took pictures. Laughed here and laughed there..and we do the hokky pokky and we turned ourselves around..that's what its all about! :) We were talking when suddenly, firworks started to pop out from nowhere. I went "Aaaaaawwww" at Gf Naddz. HAHA!!! At 9pm, we bid goodbye since gf Izzi has to work tomorrow. :) Next outing, pot luck baby! I can't wait. Pictures are with gf Izzi and I'll promise to upload once I get hold of the pictures. Gd night!

thanks, but no thanks.

6:53 AM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND. PERIOD

ilovemybf.ilovemybf.ilovemybf.ilovemybf.ilovemybf.ilovemybf.ilovemybf.

6:20 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

I woke up, as early as 7.15am. Bathed, changed to my work uniform and off to work. Yesterday night, I texted the in-charge, asking "Am I supposed to come to work tomorrow?", but I received no reply. I was on my way, inside mrt when I called one of the staff but didn't pick the call. I reached the store and the door's locked. So I went in via the clinic's door but it's lock too. So I called the in-charge again and asked "today I work anot? yesterday I msg u, u nvr reply". The replied I received was "no, today you not working". PEH BINGETT!!!!!!!!! Waste my time only. =.= So I called boyfriend and he asked me to come pondok. He was at pondok since yesterday night. HAHA!!! And oh, someone committed suicide at helmi's block. tsk tsk tsk!!! Boyfriend and friends saw the whole thing. Slacked with them till 12 in the afternoon. Now, the boy is soundly asleep. hehh!!!

Anyway, that's not what I want to blog about. :)

Here's the catch. Have you ever browse through your relatives facebook and is impressed with how they've grown? HAHA! Well I do, about a few minutes ago. I was browsing through my relative's facebook and gosh! He's different already. I still feel like it was yesterday I saw him with diapers. Now, he's in secondary 3. Sometimes, you get amaze at how they changed. From baby to yound kid and then now, to young teenager. haha! Drastice changes along the way aye. When I browse through his pictures, I laughed. Not laughing at his picture lah! It's just that when I was looking at the pictures, it reminisce about my secondary school days. haha! How I used to slack with my girls right after school, the gossips, the fun, the sadness and so much more. Aaaaawww, I miss those days. People say, treasure your secondary school life because that is where you grow together with your friends. Especially your close friends because up till this very moment, my sec school girlfriends and myself are still very close like how we were back then. :) Secondary school and Primary school friends are different. Don't you think so? Secondary school friends are the one where you tell your secrets to, the one who will cover your ass when trouble hit you, the one who will laugh and cry together with you, the one who will do naughty things together with you and then laught about it. haha! I saw the changes in myself, now and back then. HAHAHA! And of course, the changes I saw in each and everyone of the girls. From nerd to beautiful ladiessss. haha! Amazing! These things, you can't have it for another round. It only happens ONCE. Once it happened, it became memories and memories stays as memories. So, treasure the ones you love and also your life people! :)

8:30 PM
Yours truly.

Sunday morning was a little bit annoying. haha! I woke up at 7.30am, bathed and got ready for mentoring lesson which commenced at 9am. So once done, called boyfriend to wake him up. HAHA! guess what??? He "tido mati". In the end, after 60 miss calls, he picked up the phone and said " dah lmbat seh u..i tk tau asal i tk leh bgn. I tk dtg uh, dtg pon tk sempat ". HAHA! I was transfered from primary 2 to primary 3. I replaced gf Izzi. So, I'm working with new kids and so far, they are quite okay. Horn diorang maseh main hide and seek lagi. hahaha!

Once done with mentoring, too bus 187 with gf mas and met the boy over at pondok. He brought along the cutting mat. Had our lunch at yew tee point and then proceed over to my crib for the art and craft session. Sadly, I wasn't in the mood to draw and I have no idea where to begin my drawing. tsk! So, we packed and had our dinner at the coffee shop near my house. We ate rojak mama. Once done, the boy had his smoke break at the badminton court. Ya know, the boy have this tendency to smoke after a heavy meal. He said it's a must because it completes his stomache or whatevershit. HAHAHA! Listened to songs and enjoyed the wind. Suddenly, boyfriend asked me to watch "Meet the meat part 1 and 2" at youtube. So we went back to my crib and watched it. Tell you what ahhhh, I want to be a vegetarian already. why? You guys should watch the video. :) :) :)

The other day, I watched Dear John with boyfriend. After watching the movie.. I told him "b..I tak nak you go ns uhh mcm ni". haha! He said "jgn mrepek ah, sini nyer ns ngn saner nyer maner samer. Kiter tak yah gi overseas ni smuer. Keselamatan kiter terjamin". =.= HAHAHA! And oh, boyfriend's friend, Aliff, had gone for National Service already. Wonder when is boyfriend's turn. Well, his turn will arrive. Wonder how will bf be hor over at the camp in the fiture. Hmmm..Imma bet, Aliff's girlfriend must be missing him so badly right now. Aaaaaaahhhh!!! Why must have ns eh!?!?!?! Bowdow! hahahaha!

Ok ok, I have so many things to share here but uhh..I rather keep it. HAHH!!!! ok bye.

5:27 AM
Yours truly.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Hello earthlings. :) My saturday was well spend with dearest family. Dad bought new kite from 7/11 early this morning so we brought the new kite to West Coast Park and let it fly there. :) We were supposed to fly it at woodlands area but since we went to west coast to buy our cat sand litter, we might as well fly it at west coast park then. hehh! Mom said it's better in woodlands than in wcp. Oh well. What matters the most is that, we managed to see our kite fly high up on the beautiful blue sky. After the kite flying, we had our dinner at west coast area. Once done, headed to grandma's crib for a visit.

So basically, I'm back home at 11pm. Here I am updating my blog while watching tv at the same time. I am trying to keep myself awake because there will be a great show on channel 5 at 1am. tsk! Why must it be so late?!?! I'm having mentoring tomorrow you know! I don't want to wake up late again. Neverrrrmind. =.=

I'll be back working on Monday. Had a long week break from guardian. haha! I'm so liking it okay! But to think of it again, I cannot be a couch potato already. I must work. why? So that I can earn money. =________=" Of course, I'll be dragging my feet to work this monday, with my orange and blue uniform. urgh! I don't like the uniform lah. It looks so eeeeeeew! Kerje pon tak semangat sey like that. haha! I'd rather school than working, I swear! Back when I was in school, I always think that working life is better than schooling life. haha! Stupid right! I know. I got whacked from school work but now when I started working, I'd rather work. hehh! I'd rather put up with school work and exams than to work with staffs that are so unpleasant and being treated like "woof!woof!". =.= So, the moral of the story is...... education is very important. :) :)

Alright, I want to go get some rest now and prepare my artsy stuff for tomorrow for the boy and I will be having art and craft time!!! HAHAHA! Sounds so childish? yea! But we like it. :D Toodles!

7:32 AM
Yours truly.

Friday, March 5, 2010

Have you ever wonder what you are going to do with your life once you reach that certain age?

Well, I do. Sometimes, I think too much. But oh well, it doesn't really matters that much. Do they? Hmmm...well, at times when I look at my dad, financing all our bills, house bills and whatsoever, I get scared. Being an adult isn't as easy as how it looks like. Especially when you have your own family to support. I'm glad that I'm not too young and not too old. Just a perfect age for a young woman like me (at this point of year only la hor! I'll be 20 by 2011.tsk!). People keep saying, as you grow older, you'll grow wiser. Hmmm...so if a person is 100years old, how much wiser that person is? I don't get it. hahaha! Some people grow nonsense as they grow older. HAHAHA! I've seen one. :)

Sometimes I wonder, what would I be when I turn 60. haha! Grey hair, thin skin, walking with the support of a walking stick or should I say, already dead. hah!! I wonder what would I be after I graduated from polytechnic. Hmmm...So many I wonder. I want to live my life like how I wanted it to be. Not too boring, not too hectic. But hey, I can't always get what I want in life right? When I lose something, I gain something. I'm turning 19 and I ought to know which is good and which is bad. But again, I'm just an ordinary human being who cannot run away from making mistakes. But then again, I always have my common sense or brain to choose which is healthy and unhealthy, which is good and which is bad. It's about making choices. You make a bad choice, you bare the consequences, you make the right choice, you might feel a little bit noob but you'll still feel good about it. hehh! It's up to the individual.

I made a promise to myself. Whatever it is that life can offer me, I must learn to say NO. Especially to the life that starts with letter C. I'm not trying to be "macam good good aje" but I just want to respect myself more. Don't feel offended by this because this is just my own humble opinion. Nothing more. :) Different individual has different perspective. In this life of mine, I want to minimise as much repeatable mistakes as I can.

Whatever it is, I just want to lead a normal life. Nothing less, nothing more. :)

7:44 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

I am so lazy to edit the picture, the reason why I put it left and right. hehh! It turned out to fugly aye. HAHA! Anyway...met the boy today, like FINALLY! The boy has been working his ass of for the last 3 days for his own hard earn pocket money. yea yea. So, we went to Funan Centre to collect his laptop. Gosh! It took them 1month plus for the laptop to be ready. We send it on 29/01/2010 and it was ready for collection only by today. chet!!! Work so slow! Afterwhich, we headed to Peninsula and window shop. Tell you what ah, I totally dislike window shop! haha! There's so many things that I want to buy but looking back at my pocket, I only found a hole there. HAHAHA!! I walked around and I saw this cap, nice cap. It cost $15 and I am so damn tempted to buy it. After so much of thinking, I finally made the decision to use the money I saved for bali. =_________='' So much for wanting to save it and die die not touch that money! I am so dissapointed with myself. tsk! nevermind, nevermind. Money will roll in again. hehh! I didn't buy the cap since I want to buy it on Saturday. Might be having a mini shopping with the boy on Saturday. After peninsula, walked to Heeren. The weather was torid and we did stop at certain shopping mall for some aircon! hehh! At heeren itself, we window shop again. Went into Fourskin and there goes the temptation again. This time round, boyfriend got tempted too! HAHAHA!!! We saw this red couple tee and I swear it looked nice on boyfriend. And I also saw this t-shirt that I've been dying for since I-don't-know-when. eeeeeeikkkk!!!! I wanted to buy it so badly sia but the boy and myself promised that we'll wait till Saturday. hehh! But, I did not walk out from the shop empty handed. :) I bought the black shades only at $9.90. From $24.90, they lowered the price to $9.90. It's a must to grab lor! :)

Once done, took bus 190 back to bp. The boy fell ill today. Pity him. He's been sneezing 24 hours but still, managed to put a smile on his face. Aaaaawww b, I'm so proud of ya! ;) Rest well okay for you have a long day tomorrow! :)

Tomorrow, I am going to look for money. HAHAHA! bye bye!

6:35 AM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

I found a few old pictures. :) Here it goes...

we're a few months old ^^

So, this picture was taken when we're just a few months old. I couldn't remember the exact months but I'm pretty sure that we're new. What I can remember was that, Shahrin send me off to gf Nadz void deck. Me and gf Nadz were going somewhere, idk where. hahh!! So yeah. At that point of time, I was very obsessed with green colour so that explains why I wore green top and bottom. Ok wait, even green pump shoes. HAHAHAHA!!

first date ^^

Yeah, our so called first date. This was in the month of november 2007. I just got my first job and had to buy black jeans, so Shahrin accompanied me. First, we headed to Peninsula and then to Vivo City. HAHA! We planned to wear white and yeah. hahahaha! Aaaaaw, I could still remember those days siaaaaa! hahahahahaha

bf's ncc POP ^^

The boyfriend went for his NCC clt course. It was his passing out parade and families were invited. Well, he invited me along so that explains why I was there too. hahaha! As I watched the boy marching out with his sword, I felt proud of him because as far as I am concerned, it was his dream to finish his clt course. So yeah, he did it. I couldn't help but to watch him with a big smile on my face and of course, I stood there with his family, feeling so proud of him. And of course, my heart melted when I saw him because he looked DAMN SMART with his ncc uni. Aaaawww.

;)

that same GAP shirt ^^

Yeah, we bought the same red GAP shirt. It was supposed to be a KIDS GAP shirt but we bought the large size and wore it. hehh! This picture above were taken at my house. We had our usual mentoring every sunday and he came to my crib. He did his homework and fell asleep in the middle of doing it. Lil sissy couldn't help but to laugh as she watched the boy sleep so peacefully. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

during my birthday ^^

UH HUH! It was my birthday during that point of time. Mother bought for me cake and my siblings surprised me by playing birthday song from the lappy and sang it along. I cut the cake and received a small gift from them. Lil sissy gave me a card while my dearest lil brother bought for me a necklace. Aaaaawww, thanks lil bro! hehe. Afterwhich, mom made a mini pizza and asked boyfriend to came by. So yeah, he did. Munched on the pizza and played psp. Afterwhich, we walked around town and boyfriend's mom bought for me a birthday cake too. hahaha! It's an elmo chocolate cake from polar! yearp! :)

Alright, till here.

xoxo, Syahirah.

3:37 AM
Yours truly.

Monday, March 1, 2010

I miss my bby boy already. :(

I just woke up, from my beautiful sleep. Beautiful because I dreamt of boyfriend. I dreamt that he made for me my favourite roti telur hotdog cheese. bby.....when can I taste that delicious food of yours? hehh! Dream isn't that satisfying because it's not reality. I want to be able to eat it and go "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh, sedapnye!!!!! ". :) Yes, I slept at 6pm plus and woke up at 9pm. I was shagged, totally shagged. I had to wake up early for something. hehh! Boyfriend had to work and he's on his way back now. I miss him, I miss him. haha! And and, I don't want to work this coming wednesday! :( The thoughts of it kills me! urghh..Alright, I have to wake up early again tomorrow! tsk! Nevermind, atleast I have something useful to do..rather than to rot at home. :)

HAPPY 27th to SYAH-REIN and SHAH-IRAH. heehee!

It's supposed to be on every 29th but since february is very special, I can either wish on 28th or 1st March. hahaha! Bby, I don't need to say more because by now, you should know how much you mean to me. Your smile, laughters, care, love and everything are the source of light during my darkest hours. We've been through alot, and I mean alooooot! hahaha. but we prevailed! Thank you so much for everything Shahrin. I Love You So Much. ;)

*No one gets left behind- Black Hawk Down* :)

5:55 AM
Yours truly.