A Big Dreamer

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

9:13 PM
Yours truly.

Tell me I am worth it.

9:01 PM
Yours truly.

gdnight. :(:)

7:51 AM
Yours truly.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Have you ever feel like hugging someone but the way they hug

you isn't how it is when you hug them.

Today's topic was manageable. Infact, it's easy as abc. haha! I thought lab session today is going to be difficult since it's anatomy & physiology lab. HAHA! But it's not. So, woohoooo!!!! Lesson ended at 3.30pm. Very early! haha. Went to the school lib with nazy and aishah. Will be eating with them tomorrow. I miss nazy, aishah and sha!!! See you girls tomorrow!!! Eh shit la! My eyes are failing on me! Means I fcuking sleepy already. I want to sleep! Will cntinue tomorrow.

k gdnite!

7:53 AM
Yours truly.

Monday, April 26, 2010

imy every second of my life. :(

i miss the late night calls. :(

gd night.

6:42 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

A note to self : Syahirah, it isn't about how hard you get hit. It is about how

hard you can get hit..but still, you get up and keep on moving forward and forward. It

takes you nothing to be nice with the person you like, but if you be nice with the person

you hate, that is a true skill.

It's raining in my hometown. Parents and lil brother's away for wedding ceremony. I'm with lil sissy at home. I just finished watching " Rocky Balboa ". You guys should watch it. It's a great story full with inspirations. In the story itself, Rocky Balboa thinks that the world is the most nastiest thing people can ever come through. The world can hates you, beat you..but it isn't about how hard you get hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and still keep on moving forward and forward. Yeah.. I like that quotes. It inspire me deep within. So people, go watch it! :)

It's monday tomorrow. Weekends are coming to an end real soon. Students are stressing up about school, workers are stressing up about work. hehh! Well, I'm stressing up about how I am going to organize my schedule tomorrow. There's no school for me every Monday. I have to go ICA tomorrow to get a refund for my i/c, but at the same time, I want to go school for some self revision. At 4.15, I have some pharmacy talk and after which, rock climbing. After rock climbing, I have tutoring. Which is which?? Maybe I'll give the ICA a miss and go school in the morning. After that, I'll head home and tutor my niece and then head for school again for the talk and training. So much of travelling tomorrow! pffft!! I am going to be very tired when tomorrow arrives. But hey, atleast I'm doing something I love. It's worth the pain.

I have another cd to watch. This time, it's Life Science Anatomy and Physiology cd. HAHA! I borrowed it from the school library. Well, I think this time round, I will fall asleep. But I shall give it a try. It doesn't kill a fly, right? Alright then, till here earthlings.

It ain't over, till it's over.

2:00 AM
Yours truly.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

I've got nothing to ramble about today, practically.

I woke up at 9am, headed to ICA Building, off to Bugis, met him, walk, talk, chill

and went home. Got home, watched tv, on lappy and watched House. I just finished

watching it. Tmorrow's Sunday. Usual mentoring in the morning. After that? Idk.

Goodnight earthlings.

7:03 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Hello earthlings! How's your day? I hope it went well for each and everyone of you but if it doesn't, it's okay. Laugh and you'll feel a little bit better. :) My thursday morning was spend in class, cracking my brain cells for chemistry. I swear to god today's topic is complicated and confusing. Gosh, I almost gave up. My classroom was very very cold just now. Apart from that, it was raining. I forgot to bring my jacket and I had to withstand the coldness and also the eye's irritation. tsk! Very annoying. But alhamdulillah, I managed to last till school end. :):) After school, went to eat at trcc with nazy, aishah and sha. Finally, I got to eat spagetti with chicken and potato wedges. Double happiness. haha! Once done, sha went for her silat training while the 3 of us headed for the library. Before entering the library, wanene ( his name is wan but ppl called him wanene. haha!!) called us to cheer with them for the chiron IG. So we waited and when the moment arrived, we all shy to shout. HAHAHAHAHA!!! Wasted our time onlyyy. tsk! After which, headed to the library and mug. Sha then came over at 8pm because she wants to complete her Rj before she heads home. At 8.2opm, we went home. We shall do this every thursday ey girls. hehe!

Okayy. I've made up my mind. I am joining climb republic, together with nazahah. Like yeayy!!! I have friend to go training with. yippeee!!! Nazahah and myself are coming down for the training tomorrow eventhough the rc freshman's training starts on Monday. hehh! I is so excited okayyy! I hope I can manage my time well. It's going to be very busy weekdays for me. And oh, rp is having flea market. I went for a walk and I swear to god I was so tempted to buy this one particular jacket. I might be buying it tomorrow. hehh!! Irah Irah *shake head. HAHAHA!!!

Life's been a little bit rocky this past few days. Though at times I'm putting up a fake smile on my face, still...it's a smile. hehh!! Whenever I'm sad, I like to laugh because when I am laughing, it washes away the sadness. You people should try too you know. :):) Don't care if it's going to hurt your stomach, just laugh! It's worth it. hehe!! Hang around with girlfriends, make jokes and laugh. Laugh laugh and laugh. You'll be fine. :D

Okay then. I am looking forward for weekends. Goodnight sweetdreams earthlings. :):)

6:42 AM
Yours truly.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

I'm in dilemma. I don't know whether or not I should join Interest Group. As far as I am concern, I am only free on Thursday. The rest of my weekdays are occupied with tutoring. It is possible for me to join IG since the training will take place on Monday and Wednesday, 5 - 7.. BUT, I must also remind myself that I am gambling with time and my own health. How's that sound> Dilemma much? tsk!

I had Anatomy and Physiology module today. I went for the ce talk right after class ended. Anatomy stands for structure while Physiology stands for ___________, I forgot. After the talk, I got so motivated. hehh! We'll see how long I will get motivated hor. HAHA!! The words used in A&P are so profound! I am so going to the school library and borrow A&P book, tear all the pages and eat it so that everything will be inside my brain. It's going to be at my fingertips by then. If only that works, I would already be Life Science Master. People will then call me Professor Syahirah. How's that sound? Awesome!!1 HAHAHAHA!!! Tomorrow is Biochemistry module. There's SLA Fiesta tomorrow and I'm going. Still, should I or should I not sign up? urgh! It really pissed me off when I cannot even decide. Neverrrrrmind!

I am saving my money for so many things. There's so many things that I want to buy. Some are things that I NEED while some are just another WANTS. :) I just bought 2 tops and 2 jeans for myself yesterday and I am so happy about it! I have no clothes for school! Excited much. :)

What else to ramble? Hmmmm......nothing. Goodnight earthlings.

7:26 AM
Yours truly.

Monday, April 19, 2010

I guess I found my passion.

7:09 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Happy Belated 19th Birthday Gf Mas. :) Sorry if I didn't wish you on the day itself. I plan not to wish you because we all have surprise for you. hehh! Nak kasi lu cuak sikiet. :P

Sunday morning was spent at Bukit Batok CC, mentoring. I was a little but frustrated with my mentees because they made so many careless mistakes after explaining to them for like 3-4 times. pfffftt! Susah sgt ke? I gave them simple problem sum seyy. Nevermind, next Sunday is going to be a torture for them. Muahahaha.. I am going to make them practice maths until they master it. chey cheyy. HAHA! So, after mentoring..went to chinese garden to celebrate mas belated birthday. I hope you like our little surprise. :) Next outing will either be cycling at ecp, karaoke at grandlink or kite flying at Marina Barrage okay? Get ready to have some fun bbygirls! :):) And uhh.. I love my bbygirls.. Aaaaaaawwwwwww...*hugs.

Tomorrow is a mother and daughter day. :) Mom is accompanying me to ICA. After which, I am planning to pay Bugis Street a visit and see what I can buy...if there's anything that catches my eyes. :) Alright then, till here earthlings.

*still, that courage of mine isn't there.

7:43 AM
Yours truly.

Friday, April 16, 2010

FOP pictures. Not all, but some. hehh! I miss FOP. :(

As I grow older, the work load gets heavier. The responsibilities are piling up. No one says growing up is easy. You make your own decision. The consequences, you face it yourself. You tend to get so work up. You stand on your own. Immature to mature. Short to tall. Princip change. Either good to bad, or bad to good. So many things happen.

I've stop to depend on people entirely. Whatever that I want, I will get it myself with my own hardwork unless a help is needed. I know I am not a superman and I do need some helping hands here and there. I believe that I can't depend on people for making my dream come true. & I won't let anyone ruin my wishes, dreams or goals. It's my life and I am the creator of my life with the permit from god, of course. I am nothing w/o ''him''. One day, my life will flash before my eyes and I am going to make sure it's worth watching. Same goes to you people out there, make sure your ''movie'' is worth watching. :)

toodles.

7:49 AM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Today I learnt how to answer to a matrep's reply. LOL

me: lu mcm adek2 uh boy.

matrep: adik adik pon, gua kalau main mak lu, lu dpt adik!

me: dpt bby senang boy, lu boleh besarkan tak?!

HAHAHAHA!!! Funny to the max I tell you. Thanks ey syaz. It made me laugh. Next time if I encounter any matrep, I try to trigger them first. They will get the last laugh. HAHAHAHA!!

[edited&continuation]

Currently stuck at bpp McD. Heavy rain and thunderstorm. It's so scary. I just finished my Rj a few minutes back. First day's rj is always predictable. hehh! Yea, my prediction was correct.

" How was your first day in school today? ". =___=" Rp is always like that. haha!!! How I wish everyday's rj is like tht eyy. My life would be so much easier. New facilitation room, new facilitators and of course, new classmates. Out of 25 classmates, I only knew 5. Thank god I know someone. haha! Today's module was Chemistry II. yea yea..higher level of chemistry. It was manageable for now but I am unsure if it's still is in the next 10 topics. haha! I hope so :x.

Oh, FOP was AWESOME! I had so much fun with the freshies and the Student Leaders. I am going to day that SAS has the most awesome student leaders. haha! All very energetic and funny. I loike! But the sad part was, the freshmans were boring. hehh! This year, we couldn't get to win the Principle Cup Challenge, unlike last year. I is so sad okay. I shouted till my voice's gone for the sake of SAS and now what, it's wasted. :( See see year 1! Don't want to shout2 like your student leader did right? See..lose already. :( But it's alright, there's always next year. Apart from that, I believe that the most important thing is, we all had fun. Jam and hop was a dissapointment. It wasn't as hectic as last year's. The song played by the Dj were a big downturn though we still jump jump and shout2. hehh! Boringgggggg jam and hop. HAHA! Anyway, I am so going to miss FOP. I miss my previous classmates and facilitators. boo hoo!

Alright then. Toodles for now. :)

10:44 PM
Yours truly.

I was walking back home. I stared at my own shadow.

Then I whisper quietly inside my heart, solitaire.

7:13 AM
Yours truly.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

I've lost the courage to love anymore.

FOP was awesome. I lost my voice :(. What to do, SL need to shout here and there mah.

Anyway, morning programme was the Tug Of War. Like finally, I got to take part in it. :)

I never thought pulling ropes can be so tired. hehh! The freshmans were all so quiet. I tried

to make them go crazy but I ended up being crazy. haha!!! I can't wait for tomorrow. Though

I am so shagged right now, I still have this spirit to help SAS win lor. hahahaha!!

Nothing else to talk about. Just tired. Gd night earthlings.

7:32 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

hola everyone! Today, I didn't go for mentoring. I woke up at 8am but I was so shagged that I decided to give it a miss and continue sleeping. :) I woke up again at 10am and watched the tv. At 12.15, I met up with gf Izzi over at bpp starbucks. Gf Nadz then tag along. It has been quite awhile since we last catch up with each other's life. Gf Izzi had White choc mocha while I had choc cream chip. yummehhh!! :) We then headed to Mc D since gf Nadz wants to eat. Chit chatted again and by 2pm, we bid goodbye.

It's FOP tomorrow. I can't wait to meet the freshies. bye!

6:56 AM
Yours truly.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

I ended work earlier. At 5pm ish, sissy and me made our way to Jp together with cousin nurul. We searched for baby Asfa Amani's gift. Once done, met up with Mubin and his gf and headed to uncle's crib. The baby is so cute. err, I'll just probably update tomorrow. gd nite.

8:31 AM
Yours truly.

Friday, April 9, 2010

I woke up at 7.15am for work. I swear to god I wanted to continue sleeping because I only slept at around 3am ish. I dragged myself to work. It was a little bit tiring today at work because I had to go IMM and collect some stuffs. I thought it was something very light but I was wrong. It was very heavy okay and I had to carry that all the way back to my working store. tsk! After which, I had to made my way to the bank. haiyaaaa. I had ban mian noodle for lunch. Ended work at 3pm and headed home. Once reached, I slept till 5pm. Woke up, got changed and off from home to ulfah's crin for tutoring. I is so exhausted okay. :( Tomorrow working again. 9-4pm. No senior tomorrow. Only me and my part timer friend. DIE sia like that! tsk! But I can't wait for tomorrow to come bcoz cousin, lil sissy and myself will be visiting my uncle's crib. We want to visit his new born baby. Aaaawwwww....confirm cute! We plan to share our money and buy gift for his new born baby. :) :)

I am exhausted. :( Very exhausted. My schedule is very pack next week. FOP, School, Tutoring, Working and Mentoring. huhuhu! tired tired tired. okayy, I want to sleep. Good night!

I love you b.

7:59 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

breathe in breathe out, dont cry dont cry dont cry, wipe your tears.

you're strong. Very strong. VERY STRONG. VERY VERY STRONG.

Ouh, trying to keep myself positive. fuck! urrrrrrrrgh! CANNOT!!!

can can!!!! can irah can! CANNOT LAH! CAN LAH FCUK!

8:39 AM
Yours truly.

It's a tough day today. Fluctuating emotions.

I can't even put up a sincere smile and that is pathetic.

Eyes are sad, brain is shagged. I am depriving of laughters & happiness.

Nevermind, I'll go find one tomorrow. hahh!!!! :(

7:58 AM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Yes bby, another round of rock climbing. Went with the boys today. Instead of climbing at climb asia, we climbed at x asia. Nearer lah. haha! It's shahrin first time rock climbing and he did great. :) Proud of ya! I still can't clear this particular 6a/6b+ route. tsk! Nevermind, I'll try again next time.

It's thursday tomorrow. I'm staying home. I've been going out and I miss rotting at home. haha! School's starting on the 15th. I'm left with 8 more days to enjoy my holidays. I'll be meeting the freshies this coming 12th,13th and 14th. haha! Holidays has been holidays. There are days where I rot at home and there are days where I drag my ass to work and there are also days where I do sports. I am happy with how I spend my holidays. Yeah, I did waste couple of days getting angry or sad or moodless. Today, I woke up telling myself this "my life is limited and I don't want to waste it by getting sad or angry the whole entire day". And yeah, I think I did pretty well today. Tomorrow is another new day for me. I'm glad I spend my holidays wisely. There is not a day in my life that is not important. Everyday is important to me and I want to live each day at my best. :) Though life might bring me down in the future to come, I guess I must learn how to smile out of it. Not frown. I want to appreciate the ppl around me even if they don't/can't appreciate me. I don't mind because I am living my life and they are living theirs. Everyone around me means something to me. People, appreciate the one you loves and it's never a criminal expressing your love to them. Time goes by so fast. People goes in and out from your life. You must not miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you :)

Therefore, I would love to end my post with...

Comfort of difficult days, smile when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunset to warm your heart, hugs when spirit sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendship to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth and last but not least, love to complete your life.

goodnight earthlings.

7:42 AM
Yours truly.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Just sharing..

1) I do believe that when we face challenges in life that are far beyond our own power, it's an opportunity to build on our inner strength, faith, and courage. I've learned that how we face the challenges plays a big role in the outcome of them.

2) I've learned that making a "living" is different than making a "life".

3) I've learned that without hope, faith and trust, there is no promising future, and without promising future, life has no direction, no meaning and no justification.

4) In the end, it's not the years in your life that counts. It's the life in you years.

8:14 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Sissy is back from Cambodia. :) Finally, I'm not sleeping alone. Basically, I woke up at 7am and met gf mas over at McD for breakfast. I had hotcakes while she had big breakfast. Afterwhich, off for mentoring. I thought that we would probably get our cheque by today because as far as I am concern, we should get it by today. But as usual, we don't. tsk! I is so fed up okay! Anyway, parents fetched me up after mentoring and then headed to Terminal 2. Sissy's flight landed in Singapore at 1pm. It's good to be home ey sissy? hahaha! Once done, we had our lunch at McD, again..for me. Morning=Hotcakes, Afternoon=Large Fries. =.= After luch, dad brought us to Expo since there's John Little's sale going on. ;D Dad bought 2 shoes for himself, sissy bought 1 black pant and a shoe while I bought myself a black pant, a shoe and flip flop. I am so happy!! :) :) After that, dad brought us to Sakura. The food was AWESOME! There's alot of food to try but I could not try everything because my stomache was bloated already. hahaha! It's a great day spent with the family today! I love my family. :)

Tomorrow, I wake up with purpose. I want to wake up feeling fresh. I want to wake up smilling my way to work though I might not have any reasons to smile. I'll just smile :) haha! Most importantly, my everyday purpose is to wake up with purpose and live my life wisely. :)

Goodnight earthlings.

7:05 AM
Yours truly.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

It's time for me to change to a new perspective. I've been keeping myself busy. Too busy till I rarely have time to go back home late. haha! Aaaaww...I miss going back at 12am. LOL..I'm growing old, not young. Time to be a better person. No more lazying around. No more. It's time to pick up new hobby. It's time.....

This past few days has been okay for me. Usual tutoring with Athir and Ulfah. Rock climbing last thursday and today..and maybe next wednesday. And oh, I went rc with Abg Faiz today. It was packed with people. I met new friend. Her name is Felicia. She knows how to speak malay. Her boyfriend is a student in Republic Poly. I took her contact number, so in the future..you can teach me how to climb. :) I suck at climbing. I can climb but if you ask me to do endurance or hanging.. I suck the most. :( damn it! tsk! Oh yeah..I have pick up a new sports for myself. yes yes..rock climbing. I just started. A few weeks back. I used to climb but it's just for fun. But I think after a few session this past few weeks, I think I want to be a little bit serious about it. haha! It's a great sports anyway. It's indoor and you can still climb during rainy days. :)

Oh.. I hate my saturdayssss. Don't ask me why. Saturday never exist for me. Every friday, I will tell myself.. " urgh! It's saturday tomorrow..nobody to go out with. ". SO....I give saturday a miss. yeah yea yea..pathetic. So my week only consist of monday - friday and sunday. okay? great! =.=

It's SUNDAY tomorrow and my lil sissy is coming back! yippeeeee!!! I miss her!!!!! Will be spending my day with family tomorrow!! :) :) Sakura, here we come. No wait..SUSHI!!! HERE I COME!!! :D

3:40 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Yearp! I got to grip those rocks there today with gf mas. :) Met gf mas over at bukit gombak mrt station and off to farrer park. Reached at 3pm ish. First up, high walls. I only managed to clear 2 6a grades. The rest was a failure. :( That is so dissapointing okay! Gf mas managed to climb. yeay!!! I is so proud of her please! hahaha! After 2 rounds of 6a grades, my grips started to die on me. My fingers are aching and I can't even grip the rocks properly. tsk! I am so fed up okay! Once done with high walls, went up to level 2 for bouldering. I was physically weak to do boulder routes but I needed to test myself. So yeah, I give it a try. I only managed to complete one of the routes, the other was half way through. The routes given was challenging though.

I saw a few climbers there and my jaw dropped to the floor. haha! Their grips/hand strength are solid man! I wonder how they train themselves eyy. It was amazing to watch them climb. I'm thinking of doing rock climbing once/twice a week. :) Ya know, I just need to fill in my free times with something worth it and challenging. yea yea, I guess that's how I test my endurance and strength. yea? Anyway, I had fun with gf mas today. We headed to vivo city for our dinner. I had laksa while she had lemon chicken noodle. hmmm..yummy! Can't wait for another gripping session with ya! hahahaha!

I'm thinking of going rock climbing again this coming Saturday. Anyone?? haha! It's beads making day tomorrow and I cannot wait! okok, I wanna rest. I can't even clench my fist properly. tsk! toodles and good night earthlings! :)

7:19 AM
Yours truly.