" I'm in love with polaroid ".

31st October 2009

Went out with boyfriend. Sucky weather, but nvm. Headed to Bugis and had our lunch there and tong send. My new favourite food place. hehh! As usual, I had my fish soup noodle while Shahrin had something soup with beef. haha! I asked him to try it and he did BUT it turned out to be a turn off. Sorry b! haha..Once done, walked to dhoby ghaut then took mrt to vivo. Nothing much, just window shop. Black clouds started to form and it rained heavily with lightning anf thunderstorm. Took bus 963 back to bp and home sweet home via lrt.

30th October 2009.

The devil managed to influence me. I skipped school BUT on a higher note, I went to library school and mug my ass off okay. Lina then joined me. haha! Ended mugging session at 6plus. done.

now, no mood. bye

Wednesday, 28th Ocotober 2009.

Thank god, I attended class. I managed to get hold of myself and kicked away the feeling of skipping school. The day before that, the devil came to pay me a visit and influenced me not to come school because physics module suck. I almost fell for it. hehh! But I didn't. :) No doubt, I woke up with a heavy heart but I got up and shake it off baby! I went to school with gf Nadz. Needed to pass her the lab coat. She had her breakfast first at McD before we headed for school and I must say that it was my first time reaching class exactly at 8.30pm. hahh! Thanks to the lift! I got it and my eyes were as heavy as a huge rock sitting on my eyes. pfft! I started on my worksheet and I find it quite manageable that I couldn't see myself getting stuck halfway through. But I was wrong. =.= The moment I stepped to question 6, my oh my..I stuck. There it goes..another strong urge of partial-ing myself. Physics suck, I swear. But what can I do? It's part of my learning journey. =.= I got so demotivated. Having the rest of my teammates which were apparently facing the same problem as me doesn't help at all. pfft! Well, the problem statement was a lil bit tricky. Most of the groups couldn't answer it holistically. Class ended and I was so relief. My anxiety ended. yeay! I went to meet boyfriend and meeting him was never a bad choice. yeeearp! We had our early dinner at KFC and damn! it suck to see Shahrin eating happily while I struggled to get the burger inside my mouth. All thanks to my pain-in-the-ass ulcers at my upper lip. =.= Once done, headed to McD and mug. I did my chem while Shahrin did his wtv module. hahh! In just a blink of an eye, he was playing battlefield already. skejap nah u blajar eh b! I bet your focus was more to your game. kan kan kan? hahaha. Settled with everything, headed down to pondok and slack our tiny little ass. bla bla bla...home sweet home. I was dead beat by then, I swear!

Thursday, 29th October 2009.

Another draggy day for me. I ended up sleepy in class. Had cognitive module and I swear I detest it. But oh well, I gotta do what every republicans do. Sadness. haha! Relief faci came instead of faci violet. nah...the faci doesn't matter at all because I've already hated the module. Started off with a pathetic look on every team members face. They were busy playing games, chatting and fb-ing. pfft! So without wasting my bloody time, I started the convo and we did our worksheet. haha! I don't quite like the faci. She's pregnant but I was thinking where the hell did she get the energy to talk a loooooot?!?!?! She asked so many questions okay and I swear I couldn't stand it. Irritating much. I wanted to partial and guess what....I didn't! I persevered on okay! And ohhs, the class ended late yesterday. Don't thank me, thank the faci. urgh! Whatever it is, had a hell lot of fun after school with gf Izzi. We went to catch a movie at Lot 1. Jennifer's body. Megan fox huh! Sexyyyy lady. Well, I rated it 7/10. The movie was boring at first but it turned out soooo bloody during the climax. A mixture of comedy, thriller, gore and sex scene. Yes! There's sex scene and it's a NC16 movie. wth??? Once done with movie, home sweet home. Tired, as usual. I tucked in to bed as early as 9pm.

Haiz. I'm having mind games currently and it is so not fun. So many things to do yet my entire soul feel so worn out. I wonder why. I have an early sleep but Im still feeling sleepy. wth?!?!?! Seriously, it's not helping me at all. Ut 1 is next week and I need to gather back my strength like ASAP! Somebody call 911! haha. Alright, I shall stop here and continue another day. Toodles.

I'll update when Im free. Gdnight!

Currently in class. Feeling so cold and brain dead. I was so hardworking during the 1st meeting but I got stuck. So, when I got stuck and there's no faci to guide, I am as good as doing nothing. :) The class couldn't find any solution to today's problem statement and all of us decided not to do our ptt. woooopy doo!! That is what I wanna hear bebey! :D Oh, I have ulcer on my top right lip and it fcuking painful. :( I have trouble smilling and eating okay. I don't want my smile to look distorted. pffft! And yeah, this morning when I entered the class, all was like " you cut your hair????!!!!! ". =.= yes yes, I have my reasoning as to why I cut my hair.

Went to school with gf nadz today. Had our breakfast at causeway McD. And ohhhhs, meeting the boyfriend later at noon. Please make it sooooooooner! I miss YOU! :( Oh gosh, I am sleepy. I seriously feel like partial bebey!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!

" I guess I tried too hard this time "

I partial-ed myself today for bio class. I don't know why I can't set my focus to today's problem statement. I am sure I had the motivation during 1st meeting and I was reading all of the resources given by my faci. But than, something bothered me. I am unsure what bothers me so much that I lost my focus and ended up feeling so demotivated to continue. Hmmm, I wonder. I am 50% confident that the unforgiving sight of my physics UT 1 demoralised me. The other 50%, where does it come from? UT 1 is nearing and I am feeling shitty. What is that suppose to mean? =.= I have to gather my strength back. I must! Oh my, sometthing is bothering me. Yes..something...even now. urgh! The thoughts of it irritate me so much. Eeik!!!! And oh, while I was walking back home, I felt a sudden regret. I regretted for partial-ing myself today. Aaargh!! I've learnt my mistakes and there's no way I am going to repeat it again! And to you, lu pi balek rumah..lu pi cebok muke lu! sbab aku tgk da mcm taik! Irritating much!!!

I must get back on track. I must not get influence so easily. I must not and I must NOT! And to you again, go and die! I don't want to be your friend. And oh, please do not self declare yourself that I am your bestest friend. Eeew! No way. Neeeverrrr! Oh tidaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak! Eh, go play far far. Don't come near me, like pleeeeeeeeeeease. Okay, I am sleepy. Nak tido! Schooling tomorrow! goodnight earthlings.

24th October 2009,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIRIN AND BABA! :)

Oh yes, it's the father and son birthday on that day. Cool isn't it? Had a mini celebration at bf's crib. The cake was humongous! Black forest cake, KFC and soursop drink made my stomache went bloated and made me buuuuuuuuuuurp! The cake was delisioso and so does the soursop drink made my baba. HAHA! I said " ni air soursop eh? sedap! ". Baba replied " eh tgk lah saper yg buat ". boleh gitu? hahaha. So once everything was done, I had the bestest lorry ride ever. First, to clementi then to bf's aunt's crib and then to bf's granpa's crib and lastly...home sweet home. I can never deny that I loooooooooove riding on baba's big lorry. How I wish that time would fly so slow that I could spent more time with the lorry. hahahaha!!!! Whaaaaaat a great night I had. :)

25th October 2009.

FIRST LAB SESSION IN SCHOOL. :)

Wooooopy dooo! It was the whole class first lab session today. :) I reached school super duper early. Excited kot? maybe. hahaha. I then met aishah outside W5 while waiting for the rest. Around 8 -ish, we went to the lab. I felt super duper excited okay! Once entered the lab, feeling2 scientist. hahaha! We wore the coat, goggles and hand gloves. It was so coooool that we took dozens of pictures. So today, we had to prepare 3 solutions. We dealed with copper sulphate and sodium chloride and bla bla bla. And oh, there's no 1st break during lab session. Terpakse tahan lapar. =.= Classmates started to complain about their growling stomaches. haha! Well, I had fun. I swear! Once done, met up with boyfriend and hellaluyah of fun! Thanks for the day boyfriend. :)

Oh..Ut 1 are freaking me out. I swear! Especially PHYSICS. =.= boyfriend, please tekan me in physics can? hahaha. study study study. When will I stop study? I know, when I die in the future. Everything will stop. hehh! Oh well, bf and myself promised to study till the cradle of our graves. hahaha! mcm paham kan? lol. Tomorrow's tuesday and tuesday means Molecular and Cell biology. FAV!!!! and and, bf just called. He just ended his BTT class. All the best in your motorbike license okay hunney!! Im always right behind you, cheering! With my green pom poms and mini skirt. hahaha! Alright than, till here earthlings.

I'll update tomorrow. Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy. good night.

I am worn out. Im desperate for rest. Eyes are  heavy and my entire body is lifeless. I wish that those smiles I gave today were 100% sincere and I really wish that those laughters I burst were nearly real. Lifeless soul. Tired, pyhsically and mentally. I need a rest. I want to get away from city life. I want a getaway even if it was for a day. I want real smile and real laughters. I want to enjoy the sea and make friends with the sand. I want to enjoy the blue sky and adore it. Someone, please take me somewhere far from the city. far far away. I want to cleanse my mind.

I swear Im worn out, but I am still holding on..like always. gd nite.

Today spells AWESOME. Class was noisy and fun. I like it that way. :) It brings so much of joy okay. Today's topic was a-okay. After school, met up with the babes at woodland control station and headed to my crib. They slacked at my crib since gf mas wanted to watch gegebo. hahas! Once done with gegebo, we wanted to karaoke but my mic's batt died on us. =.= so saaaad okay! Nevermind. Gf nadz then joined us. We had fun especially when we watched vdeo of kumar! hahaha! You people must watch it! especially to those who are in a state of sadness/heartbroken. That video will make you laugh, I swear. Laughters is the best medicine, agree? hahaha. They went off at 8 plus. Thanks girl for the day! :D So now, left sissy and me. Cousin Ulfah just video called with me. I saw my other cat, melmel. Melmel has grown already! Soooo cute! Omg I miss melmel. I must pay melmel a visit one day. ;)

Well, been feeling uneasy lately. It's nothing major. I am just worried about my UT 1. I may have good grades for my modules but I am still worried. I seriously need to pull up my socks. Handling the topics might be manageable BUT I am weak at delivering my answer. God, been thinking too much about UT 1 already. =.= Im wondering....I have enough of sleep BUT I still feel tired. why is that so? Can someone please tell me why? Seriously, I need bilions of energy for my activities. Im worried, worried and worried. :(

Monday blues, nothing new. I had a hard time waking up earlier this morning. I don't why I felt so lethargic. School was school. Got a lil bit frustrated but no worries, I managed to cool myself down. :) Chemistry module today was manageable. All about moles and calculations. At times like this, I forgot to bring my calculator. =.= Lucky enough, there's laptop calculator. But it doesn't feel so good using lappy's calculator. hehh! I was supposed to attend a workshop today but I got to know that it will took 2 hours with only 1 NDA. =.= Saper nak gi layan sei!! Instead of going to the workshop, I went to meet dearest boyfriend. Speaking of him, it's his first day of school today for semester 2. His class commenced at 8 and ended at 12. Great or whaaaaaaat! Apart from that, boyfriend took gym lesson every monday. hahas! I hope your muscles grow okay!! :D

I've never regretted spending my time with bf. Though it was a short one, I still enjoy myself. :) We went to KFC for our lunch and then slacked our cute little arse at pondok. Talk and talk and talk and talk, it's time for me to go home. Bf send me off at Petir lrt. A hand gesture, hugs and kisses. Then we bid goodbye. I am going to miss ya bby. :)

Girlfriends are coming over to my house tomorrow after school. Gf Mas wanted to watch cd. hahas! I really hope gf Izzi and gf nadz could make it tomorrow. Miss you girls!!! :) Been planning to go sentosa together but I guess time have yet to allow us to do so. UT 1 is commencing in another 2 weeks time. Scaaaaaaaaaaary shit! :S

Alright, nothing left to say. Shall end it here. Toodles. ;)

Saturday was beautifully spent with family and cousins. Family were supposed to have breakfast together at Bukit Batok but we all woke up late. haha! In the afternoon, met up with all my aunties and uncles and cousins. Went to Bishan to visit cousin's house. After which, went to NUH and visited auntie. She was admitted to hospital becase of low blood pressure. Once done, we headed to have our dinner at Clementi. I had roti john and it sucks! hahaha. So much for roti john cheese but I couldn't spot any cheese at all. =.= noh well, nevermind.

Good news! I am going to Bali on March next year. wooohooooo! But but, I have to pay for my own flight ticket because parents are not tagging along. I'll be going with auntie and the cousins. $154 for the flight ticket tru and fro. hehh! But I have a very strong feelings that Dad will surely pay for me. I really hope so. :P And oh, my schedule is pack for next next week. I will be having physics workshop series on the 27th and 29th and then another cognitive UT workshop on the 28th. And on the 21st, I'll be having self defence workshop in school. UT 1 will commence on the 31st and I am starting to feel the tense already. :S

Tomorrow's Sunday. Mentoring as usual. =.= I realised that the only day I can wake up late is only on Saturday. Lamentable isn't it? pffft! Well, nevermind. Alright than, have a good night sleep people. :)

" I have a wish, to capture my memories with camera. So that I could flip through all of my memories and keep it so close to me. I have a dream and my dream is big. A dream that I hold on so dearly to me and a dream that I would want to see it happen. :) "

" I'll keep my mouth closed, so that rubbish won't exit. "

To beloved sister,

Life has been tough for you. No doubt about that. I know there are so many things going on in your mind. You don't express it but I know. How I wish I could verbally say it to you. I feel horrible that I can't. But there's one thing I am so proud of you. You're STRONG. Stronger than me. It is something that you should be proud of too. I know you're breaking deep down, I know it especially when you see your boyfriend new gf. Now, ex boyfriend. You didn't even spill tears infront of him. You don't want him to know that you're weak. I am so proud of you bby sister. I really am. Keep that faith inside, don't lose it. What mom said was very true. We girls have our pride too. Apart from that, don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happen. You might lose someone so dear to you but look on the bright side of life, there are still someone who will always love you despite all your flaws. And you should know that it's US. ME and OUR FAMILY. Smile becase the world will smile along with you. Show your dimple. :) hahahaha..Let me assure u once again, I am always here, rooting for you. & ILY!

School was school. It got draggy at the end of the day. I have to thank the faci for made it sooooooo boring that I almost slept. Thank god, I have webcam that kept my eyes wide open. Today's cognitive topic was a-okay but confusing. Atomism and Holism. Whaaaaat the hell? hahahaha.. Well, it's over. Tomorrow's a new day. :D and what a great way to end my weekdays with MATHS module tomorrow. pffft!

I reached home at 9pm. Went over to bpp macd. Boyf teached me basic physics since I'm new to it. For goodness sake, I toke chem and bio. =.= Once done, cracked my braincells again for Rj. So much of thinking today. Honestly, I am tired. Haizzz.. I can't wait for weekends to arrive. Thought I could spend it with boyfriend but not again. Weekends are different now. Nevermind.

I am tired and stress. bye

Tooooodaaaaaaay, I reached school very early. As early as 7.45am. It was raining heavily the moment I went out of house. Lucky enough, there's no lightning or thunder. ;) So, I was the first person to reached my class. The lights were switched off, so I on it. =.= On my lappy and surf the net. Wah!!! I made myself at home okay. Heaven! hahaha.. Then classmates started to came in. :D

Studied about DNA and it's components today and how does the structure of DNA appropriate for the role that plays in living things. An interesting topic I must say. School was fun especially with a great classmates. Havoc!! Well, bumped into hanafi today. It has been quite sometime since I last saw him in school. haha! Nice to see you friend!!! :D

After school, meet the babes ( mas, aishah and izzi ). We slacked our cute little ass off at civic. Jokes were made and laughters were shared. :) I simply love it. Spending my afternoon with the girls was never a dissapointment. I love you girls!! :D As usual, had our normal girls talk. Gs Izzi and Gf sasha shared their relationship dilemma and conflict. Just to assure you girls, I am always here for ya! :) I might not be able to solve your problems but I do feel what you girls feel and I hope my humble piece of opinions/sharing does help you in the long run. :) What's important, we got each other's backside. haha!!!

Physics module tomorrow. Aaawwwwwwwww man! That sucks! I hate physics!!! Boyfriend is going Jb tomorrow with his family. Have a safe trip dear and enjoy yourself there. Even if it is a " pergi-balek " trip, I am still going to miss you okay! :) So, my monthly friend pays me a visit. =.= urgh!! What to dooo. hahaha.. Alright2, nothing much to blurt. I shall end it here.

Goodnight, Love S.

Been sick for 2 days straight. Fever, flue and sore throat. My health should restore by tomorrow morning, insya'allah. :) I stayed at home the entire day on Friday and Saturday. None want to go out with me. =.= haha! Those medicine got me so lightheaded that I slept almost the entire day.

As usual, went for mentoring every Sunday. I woke up late and I still have a slight fever. My head was still heavy but nevermind. Boyfriend had pms early in the morning. =.= Kesian syahirah, sakit2 pon kene marah. hahaha!!! Well, nevermind. Had lunch with bf after mentoring. Once done, headed to my crib and watched Gegebo. You guys should watch it. It's a prank show. Very funny I must say. Boyfriend, I hope you enjoy the show. Glad to see you laughing. Boyfriend sempat tido skejap ey. Kesian dier penat. My lil brother laughed while watching bf sleep. hahaha! At noon, family and I went to aunt's crib. It is always great to be able to meet my cousins. Cousins, it has been quite a long time since we last hang out together like the olden days. haha! Miss those days.

First week of school. Monday was great and so does tuesday. My two favourite days and my two favourite modules. The only two modules which really got my mind into it. Chemistry and Molecular & Cell biology. Wednesday, caboooot!!! Thursday and Friday, absent because I fell ill. How awesome is that!!!! 3 days absent for the first week of school. I am sooooo going to get a letter from school. aaaaahhhhh.. Well, no motivation yet. So sad. haizzz..ah! put that a side.

Life has been so down. Been sad but none knows. Cool huh! I know how to act. :) I might laugh, I might look absolutely normal, BUT deep down I feel so ******. Haiyaaaa, I don't want to talk about it lah. School tomorrow and it's Chemistry day. Wooohooooooooooooo!!!!! I am so looking forward to it. I miss my classmate. hehh! :)

Till here then. Toodles.

you'll never care about my feelings. Never. If i'm wrong, prove it.

I'm sick, very sick. Nothing much. Bye

Wednesday, 7th October 2009.

I skipped school. Yes, on my first week. No regrets at all. Instead of going to school, I went to Pulan Ubin with boyfriend, shasha, man, hasnim and oyan. It has been my wish to go there and cycle. Outdoor, adventure, challenges, I love it. It wasn't as easy as what I thought. At times, I just felt like giving up and went home stright away. But, I continued. hehh! We were suppose to meet at 9am but as usual, janji melayu, we met up at 10 ish. hahas. Took bus 960 to bugis and then took bus 2 from bugis to changi. Once reach changi, had our lunch first. After which, took ferry to Pulau Ubin. :) We rent bicycle, duuhh!!! I rent $10 bicycle and so does shasha, boyfriend and one more person ( i can't remember who ). $10 was worth it. We almost conquered the whole Pulau Ubin. My legs were as soft as jelly once we're done with everything. Overall, it was a great experience especially being with all of them. A bunch of cool, funny and sporting people. I enjoyed being with them. :D Pictures are still with Luqman. I hope I'll get them pictures as sooooon as possible. Well, I'll update more once I get hold of the pictures.

For now, adios go berambos!! tengah feeling HOT nie. ( don't worry bf, it's not about you. ) :)

Olaaa! My day was well spent. :) School in the morning as usual. Walked with atika and fariz. Well, I bumped into them. Missing my previous classmates like alot. But whaaat to do. :(

Molecular and Cell biology was moderate. Today's topic is about DNA and Inheritance. Got a lil bit confuse with DNA fingerprinting. =.= Groupmate was awesome. Grils power! hahahas. But, faci scuk. hahaha. I don't quite understand her escent. Ended class at 3.35pm and then off to cck. Met kak zelah there and headed to chinatown. It was my first time going there and it was no dissapointment. :D The bead's shop is AWESOME!!! I wanna go there agaaaaaaain! :)

On a lighter note, I hope tomorrow's plan work. :( I just want my excitement to be real, for once. :( bye lah!!

I'm a woman
Lord knows it's hard
I need a real man to give me what I need
Sweet attention, love and tenderness
When it's real, its unconditional, I'm telling ya’ll
Cause a man just ain't a man if he ain’t man enough

To love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher when the world got you feeling low
He's giving you his last, cause he’s thinking of you first
Giving comfort when he's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone
I'm telling ya’ll, I'm telling ya’ll

Cause you're a real man
And Lord knows it's hard
Sometimes you just need a woman's touch
Sweet affection, love and support
When it's real its unconditional
I'm telling ya’ll, oh
Cause a woman ain't a woman if she ain’t woman enough

Sometimes you're gonna argue, sometimes you're gonna fight
Sometimes it's gonna feel like it'll never be right
But something so strong keeps you hold’n on
It don't make sense but it makes a good song
Cause a man just ain't a man if he ain’t man enough

What a great day today. Kickstart the day with chemistry module. Meeting new friends wasn't a big problem at all. I felt a lil bit awkward and so does everyone. Ok wait, a lot awkward. hahahas. New buddy to eat with during 2nd break and hopefully, I am able to go home with gf Izzi everyday if both of us didn't get caught up with something else. Can bby Izzi? hahaha! I am in team 1 and they're a bunch of reliable and friendly people. Made new friends with Jing kai, sasha, maizurah and xue li. :) Tomorrow's Molecular and Cell biology. I am looking forward to it. Now, rj's done. pheewwww!

After school, went to chill my ass with gf izzi at westmall's coffee bean. I ordered ultimate and turkey bacan & cheese. Gosh, only god knows how hungry I was. We talked, joked, laughed and did finished our rj too. Left the place at 6pm and home sweet home. After maghrib, went to yew tee with Ibu and brothers. Shop for foooooood to bring to school. hahahas! bawak bekal lah katerkan. We then take a look at the pet shop and the headed home. Nice day today. :)

Tomorrow will be a nice day too. Heading to chinatown with kak zelah to shop for our beads and ribbons. Meeting her at 4.30pm straight after school. Should be heading home once we're done. Wednesday heading to pulau ubin. I swear to god I can't wait. Sadly, no camera. My camera PECAH and I don't know how it broke. :( Thursday, going for a talk regarding pbl. haha! I want to quickly finish up my ce points because I am left with a lil bit more and I am done with it. wooooopy doo!!! Will be going with aishah and shaiha. Friday, meeting gf mas. :) So that would be my schedule for this week. wohooohoo, pack uh. haha. I like it that way. :) And oh, I am thinking of doing a part time job. hmmmm..I am still thinking of it whether or not I can handle. Reason because I want to keep myself busy, earning my pocket money and to keep mysef busy. haha! I've just finished revising my chemistry module. yeah, gotta revise every module. I can't let history of semester 1 to repeat again this time. I hope this drives last long. Insya'allah.

Well, hope you guys have a nice day ahead. Toodles.

School commence TOMORROW! I've just checked my outlook and I received tons of messages. Gosh, it has been quite sometome since I last check my outlook. So, I received a message from my new chemistry facilitator. Groupings for tomorrow has been assigned. I'm in team 1. :) I am needed to revise A101, my previous module for tomorrow's chemistry BUT I am soooooo stoooooooooooopid to delete all of it. =.= haiyaaaa! Nevermind, I still have paper notes with me. I hope it'll help.

So, waking up at 6.30am tomorrow. Meeting my friend before proceeding to class. Imma bet, everyone will look so stone. Different faces. Awkward. Can I have my class back pleaseeeeeeeeeeee?? In my dreams. =.= Back to Rj again. This time, I will write a longer Rj since I've learned how effective it is to pull up your daily grade. nyeahahaha! I have to score better GPA this time.

Err, I won't be posting a long one cause I feel kinda sad. My other dearest kitty has been adopted by someone else. I miss melmel alot. I really do. Melmel, I hope you're doing fine over there.Toodles. :(

Today was okay. Tomorrow's sunday and the next day is Monday. Monday is equivalent to squeezing my brain juice day. :) But I am somehow looking forward to it because it's going to be chemistry day. hahas! I have to start polishing my rusty brainsssssss. wait! I only have 1 brain. :)

And oh, I think I chilled at home too much. Time to go outside and kick some ass. :) I gotta do what syahirah usually do. wooopy dooo!

People, meet my new time-table for semester 2. Whaaaaat a great day to start of with chemistry! :D New classmates, new facilitators, new modules, new facilitation room, new environment. Everything is NEW. How sucky can that be?? Guess there will be another round of ice-breaking for me. =.=! There will always be an ice-breaking session for Rp. pffft!! School commence next week. I am still not ready yet and I want my holidays longer please. Back to old routine. Wake up at 6.45am, haversack bag, earpiece plug in my ears, presentation, problem statements, starring at laptop, having a headache of what to wear to school, starring at my wardrobe for idk how long. sigh lah! But but, what I am looking forward to school is the fooooooood there. hahahas! Scrumptious food to eat during break. yeahaaaaa!!! I really miss the spagetti at TRCC. woooopy doo!!!

Tomorrow's saturday. What can I do tomorrow? sigh. I wanna go chill myself and get expose to the sun. I want a romantic time. I want to enjoy nature. I want to take a lot of pictures. I wanna relax. I want to joke and laugh. I wanna swim and play the sand. Anyone? I sound pathetic. =.= Guess that would only be in my dream. :(

wish you could hug me like how you hug in the bus.. when my times are rough, when I feel like falling, when my tears roll down my cheeks, when my whole feel like tearing apart.

Nothing much, goodbye. :(