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Tuesday, June 30, 2009
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As I grow older, life seems to be more complicated. I've been lying around aimlessly with so much on my mind. Been there and done that but still, I feel sad, dissapointed, confused and so much more. Mix feeling isn't helping me at all.
School has been such an arse with e learning. I hate them. It makes me so lazy to wake up early in the morning and on my lappy. I hate that, alot. I think, most of the republicans hate that. My mind is not at its good condition and I don't know when will it stop. I want it to stop now, right now. I want my happiness back.
Im worried for myself because with how I am behaving at this very moment, I can see myself going no where. Stuck with the past and afraid to move on. Afraid of getting hurt, afraid of everything. Wonder where my strength go to. Maybe I should start doing back the things that I've long abandon it. My 5 prayers. I tried to think of so many solutions to get myself back on track but it just wont work out. & then I gave up. But I forgot that I still have my responsibility to do.
School starts tomorrow and Im afraid Im not ready yet to face the world. I've been locking myself at home/room watching gossip girl. Hoping that it could make me feel better. But no, it doesn't. I want to go out, eat some dessert and just clear all the dust in my mind. I want to laugh instead of crying. I dont want to punish myself anymore. Enough of getting screwed and still struggling to get the screw out of my mind. Aaaaaaarrrghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dont feel like tutoring today. urgh! I dont want to do something that I don't wish to do at the moment. Being at home isn't helping too. I wanna go out! I wanna get some fresh air! HELP ME!
I lost my track of time. I lost everything. I just want to go somewhere and sit! Feel the breeze of the earth and enjoy the sunset of the day. with.....the one I love. It's a wishful thing but uhh, I think I need to go there alone. yeah...ALONE. Every where ALONE.
done. :(
9:05 PM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
As I grow older, life seems to be more complicated. I've been lying around aimlessly with so much on my mind. Been there and done that but still, I feel sad, dissapointed, confused and so much more. Mix feeling isn't helping me at all.
School has been such an arse with e learning. I hate them. It makes me so lazy to wake up early in the morning and on my lappy. I hate that, alot. I think, most of the republicans hate that. My mind is not at its good condition and I don't know when will it stop. I want it to stop now, right now. I want my happiness back.
Im worried for myself because with how I am behaving at this very moment, I can see myself going no where. Stuck with the past and afraid to move on. Afraid of getting hurt, afraid of everything. Wonder where my strength go to. Maybe I should start doing back the things that I've long abandon it. My 5 prayers. I tried to think of so many solutions to get myself back on track but it just wont work out. & then I gave up. But I forgot that I still have my responsibility to do.
School starts tomorrow and Im afraid Im not ready yet to face the world. I've been locking myself at home/room watching gossip girl. Hoping that it could make me feel better. But no, it doesn't. I want to go out, eat some dessert and just clear all the dust in my mind. I want to laugh instead of crying. I dont want to punish myself anymore. Enough of getting screwed and still struggling to get the screw out of my mind. Aaaaaaarrrghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dont feel like tutoring today. urgh! I dont want to do something that I don't wish to do at the moment. Being at home isn't helping too. I wanna go out! I wanna get some fresh air! HELP ME!
I lost my track of time. I lost everything. I just want to go somewhere and sit! Feel the breeze of the earth and enjoy the sunset of the day. with.....the one I love. It's a wishful thing but uhh, I think I need to go there alone. yeah...ALONE. Every where ALONE.
done. :(
9:05 PM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
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I'll update tomorrow. nite :)
8:15 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
I'll update tomorrow. nite :)
8:15 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
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My day started with a call....* bby's crib calling..kringgggg kringggg krinngggg. *
me: hello.
him: hello(suare bgn tido), u pat ner?
me: I maseh pat rumah ngah siap2. naper?
him: ouh. u kluar rumah kul raper?
me: kul 7.30 gitu
him: oh ok ok, i nak gi skolah tau. ader project kene buat uh
me: project? oh alright2
him: ok, aper2 nanti u msg i kay?
me: okay.
It was 7.30 and I went out from my house..while walking, under my block, someone approached me..and i was..
me: whaaaat the heelllll?????
him: hahaha!
me: banyaaaak u nyer project!
him: hahaha. jom gi skolah samer2! :)
me: * inside my heart..sayaaaang jgak mataer aku pat aku ey. sanggaup bgn pagi. :)
hahaha! yes, I kickstart my day by walking to school with boyfriend. It's the first time boyfriend send me off to school. Thank you dear! That's so sweeet of you..It has been quite a long time since I started my day with a smile plastered on my face. *smile from ear to ear.
Maths module today. The topic suck. It's about probability and I totally forgot everything about it. From what I learned during my secondary school time, I only knew the tree diagram but applying it was a no go for me lah! chet! The school has firedrill just now. I swear to god I felt as though I was back in secondary moments. lol. We gathered at the sports complex field. We sat, under the hot scorching sun, only for 10=15 minutes. After which, off for lunch. It was such a waste of time but then again, I rather put up with the hot sun than in class doing maths worksheet. hahahahahaha! Well, during our presentation, I received rumours that there will be no school for all the year 1 starting tomorrow. It was rumours & I dont believe it. But then, I received email stating that school is closed for all the year 1 till 1st July. Wah!!!! I soooo happy I tell you. Hatiku berlonjak dengan penuh kegembiraan sia! Showed the email to my team mates and then all of them started to shout. wooooohoooooo! Too bad, it's only for the year 1. To gf Izzi, dont get jealous okay. :)
Alright, nothing much to blog about. & Im turning 18 in few more hours. :)
6:06 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
My day started with a call....* bby's crib calling..kringgggg kringggg krinngggg. *
me: hello.
him: hello(suare bgn tido), u pat ner?
me: I maseh pat rumah ngah siap2. naper?
him: ouh. u kluar rumah kul raper?
me: kul 7.30 gitu
him: oh ok ok, i nak gi skolah tau. ader project kene buat uh
me: project? oh alright2
him: ok, aper2 nanti u msg i kay?
me: okay.
It was 7.30 and I went out from my house..while walking, under my block, someone approached me..and i was..
me: whaaaat the heelllll?????
him: hahaha!
me: banyaaaak u nyer project!
him: hahaha. jom gi skolah samer2! :)
me: * inside my heart..sayaaaang jgak mataer aku pat aku ey. sanggaup bgn pagi. :)
hahaha! yes, I kickstart my day by walking to school with boyfriend. It's the first time boyfriend send me off to school. Thank you dear! That's so sweeet of you..It has been quite a long time since I started my day with a smile plastered on my face. *smile from ear to ear.
Maths module today. The topic suck. It's about probability and I totally forgot everything about it. From what I learned during my secondary school time, I only knew the tree diagram but applying it was a no go for me lah! chet! The school has firedrill just now. I swear to god I felt as though I was back in secondary moments. lol. We gathered at the sports complex field. We sat, under the hot scorching sun, only for 10=15 minutes. After which, off for lunch. It was such a waste of time but then again, I rather put up with the hot sun than in class doing maths worksheet. hahahahahaha! Well, during our presentation, I received rumours that there will be no school for all the year 1 starting tomorrow. It was rumours & I dont believe it. But then, I received email stating that school is closed for all the year 1 till 1st July. Wah!!!! I soooo happy I tell you. Hatiku berlonjak dengan penuh kegembiraan sia! Showed the email to my team mates and then all of them started to shout. wooooohoooooo! Too bad, it's only for the year 1. To gf Izzi, dont get jealous okay. :)
Alright, nothing much to blog about. & Im turning 18 in few more hours. :)
6:06 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
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I was left alone, too often.
The reason why I'm like this.
7:11 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
I was left alone, too often.
The reason why I'm like this.
7:11 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
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This post is going to be long. :)
Today, I woke up late. I ended up at home instead of school. Wrong moved I made. chet!! I was alone at home. Momsie and lil brother went out to aunt's crib early in the morning. Dad went to work. I also did not go for both adventure training and chiron meeting. =.= bla bla bla....Mentoring Family Day 21st/06/09
It was tiring but fun. The weather nearly killed all of us. We could get heat stroke ok! Look at gf izzi's skin colour. TWO TONE. It was very obvious, haha! Great day with a great bunch of people. :) That's all & bye.
3:58 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
This post is going to be long. :)
Today, I woke up late. I ended up at home instead of school. Wrong moved I made. chet!! I was alone at home. Momsie and lil brother went out to aunt's crib early in the morning. Dad went to work. I also did not go for both adventure training and chiron meeting. =.= bla bla bla....Mentoring Family Day 21st/06/09
It was tiring but fun. The weather nearly killed all of us. We could get heat stroke ok! Look at gf izzi's skin colour. TWO TONE. It was very obvious, haha! Great day with a great bunch of people. :) That's all & bye.
3:58 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Monday, June 22, 2009
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I've been pushing myself REAL HARD lately.
VERY HARD. EXTREMELY HARD. SUPER HARD.
I'm exhausted, brain dead and lifeless. I just NEED some rest. No! PLENTY OF REST!
k bye.
6:19 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
I've been pushing myself REAL HARD lately.
VERY HARD. EXTREMELY HARD. SUPER HARD.
I'm exhausted, brain dead and lifeless. I just NEED some rest. No! PLENTY OF REST!
k bye.
6:19 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
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It's SATURDAY today! :) I went to meet boyfriend. bla bla bla. I don't want to elaborate much. After which, met up with parents and lil bro at bpp. Dad bought for me Jansport bag for my birthday. So, it's an advance birthday gift. nyeahahaha! thanks dad! Love you ! :) Afer which, we headed to bukit batok and have our dinner. Once done, went home. Today's rating 5/10. :( Yesterday pictures! :)
Shut up " Woof! ", for dogs. hahaha!
Sue & Atikah.
Syahidah & me! :)
haha! I taught syahidah how to play " stress! ".
sexy lady! :)
She's smokeeyyy!!!! :)
altogether now! ;)
sue, I love your yellow flower lah!
sue & me! ;)
Shisha yesterday was fun. It was my first time :). First, we went to Al- Majlis but couldn't get away because they checked our i.c. pfffft btol!! After which, we decided to shisha at Haji Lane. We talked, joke and shared some stuff. :) It was great and we all plan to have a quadruple date!So, Im having mentoring family day tomorrow held at west coast park. I can't wait! :)
7:23 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
It's SATURDAY today! :) I went to meet boyfriend. bla bla bla. I don't want to elaborate much. After which, met up with parents and lil bro at bpp. Dad bought for me Jansport bag for my birthday. So, it's an advance birthday gift. nyeahahaha! thanks dad! Love you ! :) Afer which, we headed to bukit batok and have our dinner. Once done, went home. Today's rating 5/10. :( Yesterday pictures! :)
Shut up " Woof! ", for dogs. hahaha! Sue & Atikah.
Syahidah & me! :)
haha! I taught syahidah how to play " stress! ".
sexy lady! :)
She's smokeeyyy!!!! :)
altogether now! ;)
sue, I love your yellow flower lah!
sue & me! ;)
Shisha yesterday was fun. It was my first time :). First, we went to Al- Majlis but couldn't get away because they checked our i.c. pfffft btol!! After which, we decided to shisha at Haji Lane. We talked, joke and shared some stuff. :) It was great and we all plan to have a quadruple date!So, Im having mentoring family day tomorrow held at west coast park. I can't wait! :)
7:23 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Friday, June 19, 2009
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" Today was great, I swear! "
Webcamming with gf izzi & shisha with the girls is more than enough to make me happy.
I'll do a proper update tomorrow. toodles & njoy the pixo! & uhh, more pictures to be uploaded.
Goood Night!
8:37 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
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