A Big Dreamer

Sunday, September 30, 2007

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Honestly speaking here,

I am already sick and tired of fighting because of a friend.

Sometimes I feel, why bother???

I get pissed easily when I heard about this shits.

G.O.S.H.

Sometimes, I feel stressed not because of studies only

BUT also because of friendship.

When can SISTERHOOD settledown in one peace???

Why must there be someone whom we really had a problem with??

I just don't understand larh.

WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? and WHY???????

AAAARRRGGHHH FUCK LARH.

I shall not a give a hit out if this.

Just be what you want to be larh ehk.

I dont want to get involve!!

I've HAD ENOUGH PEOPLE.ENOUGH!!!

I MISS RAUDHAH AND DAYANA.

6:25 AM
Yours truly.

Honestly speaking here,

I am already sick and tired of fighting because of a friend.

Sometimes I feel, why bother???

I get pissed easily when I heard about this shits.

G.O.S.H.

Sometimes, I feel stressed not because of studies only

BUT also because of friendship.

When can SISTERHOOD settledown in one peace???

Why must there be someone whom we really had a problem with??

I just don't understand larh.

WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? and WHY???????

AAAARRRGGHHH FUCK LARH.

I shall not a give a hit out if this.

Just be what you want to be larh ehk.

I dont want to get involve!!

I've HAD ENOUGH PEOPLE.ENOUGH!!!

I MISS RAUDHAH AND DAYANA.

6:25 AM
Yours truly.

Saturday, September 29, 2007

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I AM REALLY PISSED.

MY BLOOD IS RISING AND AT THE SAME TIME BOILING.

I read Mas blog just now.

I knew there will be spammers at her tagboard.

My instinct was RIGHT.

I know that somehow, SOMEONE is not happy with sisterhood.

WHY?? Because the spammers said that we are treating MAS badly.

I know I couldnt keep this anger of mine anymore.

THIS IS MY BLOG.

AND I SHALL BLURT MY ANGER HERE.

The spammers said that he/she felt pity for Mas

because he/she believed that WE actually PRETEND to like her.

So spammers, are you one of Mas friends???

Are you there for her when she was in need of a helping hand??

If YOU said that we aren't good enuf for Mas, why not YOU be her only BFF??

Do you actually AWARE of what is happening in sisterhood LIFE??

If YOU are NOT AWARE then just sealed your mouth tightly.

Mas,

If you think that we are not good for you.

You can always say it to us.

If whatever we had done to you is still not good enuf to convince you.

den TELL US.

SAY TO US.

Don't just keep it to yourself OKAYY.

If we did anything wrong to you den SAY IT.

Don't show us your sad sad face BECAUSE we did not KNOW what happen?!?!

OKAYY??????

SHIT LAH EHK.

8:50 AM
Yours truly.

I AM REALLY PISSED.

MY BLOOD IS RISING AND AT THE SAME TIME BOILING.

I read Mas blog just now.

I knew there will be spammers at her tagboard.

My instinct was RIGHT.

I know that somehow, SOMEONE is not happy with sisterhood.

WHY?? Because the spammers said that we are treating MAS badly.

I know I couldnt keep this anger of mine anymore.

THIS IS MY BLOG.

AND I SHALL BLURT MY ANGER HERE.

The spammers said that he/she felt pity for Mas

because he/she believed that WE actually PRETEND to like her.

So spammers, are you one of Mas friends???

Are you there for her when she was in need of a helping hand??

If YOU said that we aren't good enuf for Mas, why not YOU be her only BFF??

Do you actually AWARE of what is happening in sisterhood LIFE??

If YOU are NOT AWARE then just sealed your mouth tightly.

Mas,

If you think that we are not good for you.

You can always say it to us.

If whatever we had done to you is still not good enuf to convince you.

den TELL US.

SAY TO US.

Don't just keep it to yourself OKAYY.

If we did anything wrong to you den SAY IT.

Don't show us your sad sad face BECAUSE we did not KNOW what happen?!?!

OKAYY??????

SHIT LAH EHK.

8:50 AM
Yours truly.

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Today’s tution lesson was inspiring for me.
Mdm Mastura never fails to share with us her life experience stories.
Not only that, her words of thoughts were really encouraging.

“ You should give yourself a 2nd chance because you deserve it”
“ It’s never too late”
“ each and everyone of us have our own strength”
Those were the inspiring words that came from her.

After listening attentively to Mdm Mastura’s words of wisdom.
I soon came to realized that I am not the academic type of person.
I am more to the skill and practical side and I am happy being that way.

O level is a month away
And I still believe that it is never too late.
Even though it is TOO LIL TOO LATE already.

I am trying my very best to achieve my dreams now.
I will do whatever it takes in order for me to get good grades for my o level.
Passing my o level should not be a problem for me but to achieve GOOD GRADES will be quite tedious.

I am not going to give up.
This is the final lap of the race so I did not see any reason for me to give up from giving all out.

OK IM DONE AND SLEEPY.

goodnitez.

8:21 AM
Yours truly.

Today’s tution lesson was inspiring for me.
Mdm Mastura never fails to share with us her life experience stories.
Not only that, her words of thoughts were really encouraging.

“ You should give yourself a 2nd chance because you deserve it”
“ It’s never too late”
“ each and everyone of us have our own strength”
Those were the inspiring words that came from her.

After listening attentively to Mdm Mastura’s words of wisdom.
I soon came to realized that I am not the academic type of person.
I am more to the skill and practical side and I am happy being that way.

O level is a month away
And I still believe that it is never too late.
Even though it is TOO LIL TOO LATE already.

I am trying my very best to achieve my dreams now.
I will do whatever it takes in order for me to get good grades for my o level.
Passing my o level should not be a problem for me but to achieve GOOD GRADES will be quite tedious.

I am not going to give up.
This is the final lap of the race so I did not see any reason for me to give up from giving all out.

OK IM DONE AND SLEEPY.

goodnitez.

8:21 AM
Yours truly.

Friday, September 28, 2007

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" If only I have the strength and the burning spirit, I will definitely do it "

Do we receives strength and spirit?

Or does it comes within us??

How can we find back our strength when we lost it?

and how can we absorb all the burning spirit back when it disappear?

This questions have been wandering around in my mind for the past 30 min ago.

I was about to do my prayer when I suddenly peeped through my bookshelves.

I briefly looked at all the religious books of my father.

I picked one and it was about " Repent ".

I read the whole book within 30 min because it was a short one.

A simple and shock book but it really had a great impact on me.

I was scared and at the same time, guilty and curious.

I have always wanted to repent but it just seems so hard for me.

strength and burning spirit is what I need in order to repent.

But, how can I have them???

Oh well, let me just sit down and reflect it on myself.

For now.

I have to make it short and simple.

why?? because Im helping momsie to bake some Hari Raya cookies.

And at the same time.. EAT THEM.

Y.U.M.M.Y.

5:35 AM
Yours truly.

" If only I have the strength and the burning spirit, I will definitely do it "

Do we receives strength and spirit?

Or does it comes within us??

How can we find back our strength when we lost it?

and how can we absorb all the burning spirit back when it disappear?

This questions have been wandering around in my mind for the past 30 min ago.

I was about to do my prayer when I suddenly peeped through my bookshelves.

I briefly looked at all the religious books of my father.

I picked one and it was about " Repent ".

I read the whole book within 30 min because it was a short one.

A simple and shock book but it really had a great impact on me.

I was scared and at the same time, guilty and curious.

I have always wanted to repent but it just seems so hard for me.

strength and burning spirit is what I need in order to repent.

But, how can I have them???

Oh well, let me just sit down and reflect it on myself.

For now.

I have to make it short and simple.

why?? because Im helping momsie to bake some Hari Raya cookies.

And at the same time.. EAT THEM.

Y.U.M.M.Y.

5:35 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

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I hate it when this guilty and uncomfortable feeling strike me.

when it hit me, I will start to blame myself for no apparent reason.

and I tend to feel that everything is my fault.

Boyfriend,

I know that I am a bad gf for u sometimes.

I tend to be confused at times.

I honestly agree that I suck big time.

But I did a reflection just now.

I guess it was all my fault.

B..I am truly sorry.

I just hate it when this thing happen and I dont want it to go on forever.

I cannot take it larh seii.

It is so hurtful you know.

all i can say is that..

I miss the way u treat me.

I miss the way u say I love you to me.

I miss the way you sweet talk with me.

I miss the way u stare at me.

I miss the way u flirt with me.

I just so miss YOU.

OK IM DONE.

8:00 AM
Yours truly.

I hate it when this guilty and uncomfortable feeling strike me.

when it hit me, I will start to blame myself for no apparent reason.

and I tend to feel that everything is my fault.

Boyfriend,

I know that I am a bad gf for u sometimes.

I tend to be confused at times.

I honestly agree that I suck big time.

But I did a reflection just now.

I guess it was all my fault.

B..I am truly sorry.

I just hate it when this thing happen and I dont want it to go on forever.

I cannot take it larh seii.

It is so hurtful you know.

all i can say is that..

I miss the way u treat me.

I miss the way u say I love you to me.

I miss the way you sweet talk with me.

I miss the way u stare at me.

I miss the way u flirt with me.

I just so miss YOU.

OK IM DONE.

8:00 AM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

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To someone,

Thank You for all the shits that you gave it to me.It was very "kind" of you to do that, not just once but twice already. This is what I call Life. Life tend to get very messy and messed up but I know I have to do something and entangled all those messy wires. I thought it had already ended between you and me but deep down, I know it will happen again one day and yes it did. I already predict it because I can never trust you, NEVER. I am so mad at you and I hate you a lot. I may forgive you but always remember this..YOU will be hated by me like FOREVER and EVER. You made my life so miserable and I thank you for that.

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE WILL YA????

I stayed back for art today till 6.30 and then off to meet up with boyfriend.

Oh well, I miss him. It's been awhile since I last spent time with him.

I have been VERY busy with my art lately and I cannot wait for it to end.

Thank goodness, with my extra effor and hardwork, I managed to finish it but Im left with my 8 board.

I broke my fast with boyfriend today at Bp Kfc and after that he sent me back home.

Before I exactly went home, we sat at the badminton court near my house and adore the full moon.

I broke down when I stared at the full moon.

Boyfriend comfort me.

I AM SO FREAKING NO MOOD.

im bounce.

5:49 AM
Yours truly.

To someone,

Thank You for all the shits that you gave it to me.It was very "kind" of you to do that, not just once but twice already. This is what I call Life. Life tend to get very messy and messed up but I know I have to do something and entangled all those messy wires. I thought it had already ended between you and me but deep down, I know it will happen again one day and yes it did. I already predict it because I can never trust you, NEVER. I am so mad at you and I hate you a lot. I may forgive you but always remember this..YOU will be hated by me like FOREVER and EVER. You made my life so miserable and I thank you for that.

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE WILL YA????

I stayed back for art today till 6.30 and then off to meet up with boyfriend.

Oh well, I miss him. It's been awhile since I last spent time with him.

I have been VERY busy with my art lately and I cannot wait for it to end.

Thank goodness, with my extra effor and hardwork, I managed to finish it but Im left with my 8 board.

I broke my fast with boyfriend today at Bp Kfc and after that he sent me back home.

Before I exactly went home, we sat at the badminton court near my house and adore the full moon.

I broke down when I stared at the full moon.

Boyfriend comfort me.

I AM SO FREAKING NO MOOD.

im bounce.

5:49 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

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I suddenly feel this very strong urge

to meet up with my one and only bestfriend,Raudhah.

It has been quite a long time since we spent our time together.

Looking back at our sweet memories just make me miss her.

I seriously freaking miss our crazy days spent together.

I can still remember the days we spent at the esp.

yupyup,our favourite place to hang out and express our thoughts.

We have go thru thick and thin together.

This picture above was taken at the esp rooftop.
I had a hell lots of fun with her and my cousin.

This picture above were taken at the Jurong West Library.
It was an exam week so we went out to study together.
She's a GEEK let me tell you.
=)

And this picture was at the Jurong toilet.
comparing whose taller??
of course it's me lah deii.

Inside the mrt on our way back form esp.

This picture was taken at the ecp.
It was Mubin's Birthday and we held a mini party just for him.
Oh ya..Ecp seems to be our favourite place to hold a mini birthday party.
Nurul.Iida.Irah.Rau
when u combine this four girl together..
POOF it became the G.I.L.A girls. why G.I.L.A???
simple: we are CRAZY and G.I.L.A stands for "Girls .In .Laughter .Always.

Raudhah and Dayana.

I MISS YOU GIRLS TRULY.

9:45 PM
Yours truly.

I suddenly feel this very strong urge

to meet up with my one and only bestfriend,Raudhah.

It has been quite a long time since we spent our time together.

Looking back at our sweet memories just make me miss her.

I seriously freaking miss our crazy days spent together.

I can still remember the days we spent at the esp.

yupyup,our favourite place to hang out and express our thoughts.

We have go thru thick and thin together.

This picture above was taken at the esp rooftop.
I had a hell lots of fun with her and my cousin.

This picture above were taken at the Jurong West Library.
It was an exam week so we went out to study together.
She's a GEEK let me tell you.
=)

And this picture was at the Jurong toilet.
comparing whose taller??
of course it's me lah deii.

Inside the mrt on our way back form esp.

This picture was taken at the ecp.
It was Mubin's Birthday and we held a mini party just for him.
Oh ya..Ecp seems to be our favourite place to hold a mini birthday party.
Nurul.Iida.Irah.Rau
when u combine this four girl together..
POOF it became the G.I.L.A girls. why G.I.L.A???
simple: we are CRAZY and G.I.L.A stands for "Girls .In .Laughter .Always.

Raudhah and Dayana.

I MISS YOU GIRLS TRULY.

9:45 PM
Yours truly.

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Im all alone NOW.

My family is out to Geylang.Of course they are going to shop for Hari Raya clothes.

I was left behind or should I say I don't want to go because I have work to do.

So here I am alone in my crib blogging and listening to songs.

I break fast alone again and I ate bake bean,my favourite.

I did not go for tuition because I was too busy with my art coursework.

Today was the 11th day of fasting and there is 19 more days to go before Hari Raya.

I switched on the radio just now and I heard Hari Raya song.

I was so excited upon hearing it and I could not wait till Hari Raya arrive.

My art is almost done and Tuesday is the submission day.I will be staying back in school tomorrow to finish up on my art and same goes for Tuesday before my art piece will be collected at 6pm sharp.I seriously cannot wait for it to end because I think art has taken up a lot of my space and basically I have not much time to revise on my core subjetcs.After Tuesday,I will be doing a lot and a lot of revision for my o level of course.

This year, my family will be wearing GREEN for Hari Raya.

Why??? Because its my avourite colour and my family agree on wearing green on the frst day.

Well,I never thought that it will be so tiring to study during fasting month.

It was very challenging for me to do my art and revision with and empty stomache and a dead brain of course.My brain couldn't function when I'm hungry.Being alone at home is not bad after all.I feel so peaceful when no one is around.I feel much more relax and comfortable.

But my family will arrive home at any time now.

I guess they must have been doing a lot of shopping by then.

Monday Blues Tomorrow.

But I choose to be happy tomorrow.

Oh well.

Im out of words.

Holler.

=)

5:06 AM
Yours truly.

Im all alone NOW.

My family is out to Geylang.Of course they are going to shop for Hari Raya clothes.

I was left behind or should I say I don't want to go because I have work to do.

So here I am alone in my crib blogging and listening to songs.

I break fast alone again and I ate bake bean,my favourite.

I did not go for tuition because I was too busy with my art coursework.

Today was the 11th day of fasting and there is 19 more days to go before Hari Raya.

I switched on the radio just now and I heard Hari Raya song.

I was so excited upon hearing it and I could not wait till Hari Raya arrive.

My art is almost done and Tuesday is the submission day.I will be staying back in school tomorrow to finish up on my art and same goes for Tuesday before my art piece will be collected at 6pm sharp.I seriously cannot wait for it to end because I think art has taken up a lot of my space and basically I have not much time to revise on my core subjetcs.After Tuesday,I will be doing a lot and a lot of revision for my o level of course.

This year, my family will be wearing GREEN for Hari Raya.

Why??? Because its my avourite colour and my family agree on wearing green on the frst day.

Well,I never thought that it will be so tiring to study during fasting month.

It was very challenging for me to do my art and revision with and empty stomache and a dead brain of course.My brain couldn't function when I'm hungry.Being alone at home is not bad after all.I feel so peaceful when no one is around.I feel much more relax and comfortable.

But my family will arrive home at any time now.

I guess they must have been doing a lot of shopping by then.

Monday Blues Tomorrow.

But I choose to be happy tomorrow.

Oh well.

Im out of words.

Holler.

=)

5:06 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

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OKEHH READERS.

if ders any.

I SCREW UP MY PRELIMS EXAM.

My heart sank when I got back my prelim result.

It was absolutely PATHETIC.

I don't blame the paper.

I BLAME MYSELF FOR THIS.

I took the prelims exam so lightly that I barely revise.

THIS IS A LESSON FOR ME.

I WILL NEVER REPEAT THE SAME MISTAKE TWICE.

N.E.V.E.R E.V.E.R

I WILL MOTIVATE MYSELF.

OKEHH.

IM DONE HERE.

6:29 AM
Yours truly.

OKEHH READERS.

if ders any.

I SCREW UP MY PRELIMS EXAM.

My heart sank when I got back my prelim result.

It was absolutely PATHETIC.

I don't blame the paper.

I BLAME MYSELF FOR THIS.

I took the prelims exam so lightly that I barely revise.

THIS IS A LESSON FOR ME.

I WILL NEVER REPEAT THE SAME MISTAKE TWICE.

N.E.V.E.R E.V.E.R

I WILL MOTIVATE MYSELF.

OKEHH.

IM DONE HERE.

6:29 AM
Yours truly.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

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Hello Humans.

Basically I'm here to inform that.

MY BLOG WILL BE DEAD FOR A MOMENT.

WHY?

two words: BUSY GILER.

So I would like to wish all of you

the BEST OF LUCK for ur O's.

and SELAMAT BERPUASE for all MUSLIMS.

(chey..mcm nak pergi jauh gitu aku niee.)

K BYE.

7:40 AM
Yours truly.

Hello Humans.

Basically I'm here to inform that.

MY BLOG WILL BE DEAD FOR A MOMENT.

WHY?

two words: BUSY GILER.

So I would like to wish all of you

the BEST OF LUCK for ur O's.

and SELAMAT BERPUASE for all MUSLIMS.

(chey..mcm nak pergi jauh gitu aku niee.)

K BYE.

7:40 AM
Yours truly.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

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First thing I want to blurt is that I Love My Octopus Bf.

YOU rock my life okehh dear.

I LOVE YOU.

At last,

I am back to old Irah.

Sometimes,I miss myself too.

After all,I just need some motivations.

Thanks to Mdm Mastura, my beloved Tutor 4 the motivations.

O level is getting nearer.

The nearer it is,the more NERVOUS I am.

I want to faster get it done and over with.

and also make sure I end up with good grades.

INSYA'ALLAH.

I had tution today as per normal.

I did Maths Paper two and I felt satisfied.

The paper was do-able.

Tuition started at 9 am and ended at 11 am.

I went straight home and did my art.

Gosh,I really need to put in more effort.

I felt so tensed up that I sms-ed bf and we met.

We went to causeway point and watched RATATOUILLE.

Another movie AGAIN.

Yesterday we watched ROGUE ASSASIN and it was the BOMB.

So far,we'd watched 9 movie in total.

We will watc MORE movies of course.

I HAD A GREAT DAY TODAY.

=)

5:52 AM
Yours truly.

First thing I want to blurt is that I Love My Octopus Bf.

YOU rock my life okehh dear.

I LOVE YOU.

At last,

I am back to old Irah.

Sometimes,I miss myself too.

After all,I just need some motivations.

Thanks to Mdm Mastura, my beloved Tutor 4 the motivations.

O level is getting nearer.

The nearer it is,the more NERVOUS I am.

I want to faster get it done and over with.

and also make sure I end up with good grades.

INSYA'ALLAH.

I had tution today as per normal.

I did Maths Paper two and I felt satisfied.

The paper was do-able.

Tuition started at 9 am and ended at 11 am.

I went straight home and did my art.

Gosh,I really need to put in more effort.

I felt so tensed up that I sms-ed bf and we met.

We went to causeway point and watched RATATOUILLE.

Another movie AGAIN.

Yesterday we watched ROGUE ASSASIN and it was the BOMB.

So far,we'd watched 9 movie in total.

We will watc MORE movies of course.

I HAD A GREAT DAY TODAY.

=)

5:52 AM
Yours truly.

Friday, September 14, 2007

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I guess I have been thinking a lot lately.

I am physically weak,really.

I really need a good night sleep.

Even boyfriend asked me why I looked very pale.

Sometimes I got nothing to say about myself.

I am just too complicated at times.

But don't worry.I will be back to my ownself soon.

I just need some time.

too tired to get my fingers to type.

take care people.

=)

4:51 AM
Yours truly.

I guess I have been thinking a lot lately.

I am physically weak,really.

I really need a good night sleep.

Even boyfriend asked me why I looked very pale.

Sometimes I got nothing to say about myself.

I am just too complicated at times.

But don't worry.I will be back to my ownself soon.

I just need some time.

too tired to get my fingers to type.

take care people.

=)

4:51 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

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I don't know why,

but my instinct told me that something is wrong somewhere.

But I just don't want to clarify it here.

Oh well,I can't expect everything to be good always right??

people have their off days.

I had my bio paper today and it went KABABOOOM!

don't get what I mean??hahahaha.nvm then.

I sense something amiss.

WHY IRAH WHY???

oh well,WHATEVER LARH EHK.

Someone is acting strange today.

I soo hate it.I am trying to get my mood back and shits happen.

OH BLOODY SHIT LARH.

I feel like crying right now but NAH.

I wouldnt want to waste my tears anyway.

Oh well.suits you larh.

Go ahead and be what you want to be.

OR

go ahead and be strange yeah.

AS LONG AS YOU ARE HAPPY.

just GO alright.

GO!I'm not important.GO!

oh it's so fuck up.

3:50 AM
Yours truly.

I don't know why,

but my instinct told me that something is wrong somewhere.

But I just don't want to clarify it here.

Oh well,I can't expect everything to be good always right??

people have their off days.

I had my bio paper today and it went KABABOOOM!

don't get what I mean??hahahaha.nvm then.

I sense something amiss.

WHY IRAH WHY???

oh well,WHATEVER LARH EHK.

Someone is acting strange today.

I soo hate it.I am trying to get my mood back and shits happen.

OH BLOODY SHIT LARH.

I feel like crying right now but NAH.

I wouldnt want to waste my tears anyway.

Oh well.suits you larh.

Go ahead and be what you want to be.

OR

go ahead and be strange yeah.

AS LONG AS YOU ARE HAPPY.

just GO alright.

GO!I'm not important.GO!

oh it's so fuck up.

3:50 AM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

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Where is my spirit to live my life?

Where are my happiness??

Where has it gone to??

I feel so shitty today.

1) I just feel like I am a burden to boyfriend.

2) I just feel that I am STUPID.

3) I just feel that I suck big time.

4) I just feel that I am good for nothing

5) WHAT IS LIFE ALL ABOUT??

To someone,

you can't always see me happy you know.

No one is perfect.I have my own worries.

stop asking me to be happy when i'm actually not.

I have my off days and I believe u too have one.

stop saying that you are boring because it make me feel bad.

urgh.WHATEVER LARH EHK.

im sealed.

6:13 AM
Yours truly.

Where is my spirit to live my life?

Where are my happiness??

Where has it gone to??

I feel so shitty today.

1) I just feel like I am a burden to boyfriend.

2) I just feel that I am STUPID.

3) I just feel that I suck big time.

4) I just feel that I am good for nothing

5) WHAT IS LIFE ALL ABOUT??

To someone,

you can't always see me happy you know.

No one is perfect.I have my own worries.

stop asking me to be happy when i'm actually not.

I have my off days and I believe u too have one.

stop saying that you are boring because it make me feel bad.

urgh.WHATEVER LARH EHK.

im sealed.

6:13 AM
Yours truly.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

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I love you.

who?

EVERYBODY!!

Dear God

Here I am praying to you.

Please give me the strength to overcome obstacles.

Please give me the calmness and the spirit to live.

Guide me to the right path.

Show me the light instead of the darkness.

Guide me through and lift me up when I fall.

Here I am asking for your aid.

Please give me back the strentgh I used to have 4 years back.

Take away all my worries.

Send some guidance from above.

Life have been so hectic.

I am lost in the dark.

What is my strength actually??

I've been Jack of all trade but Master to none.

Still,I am searching for my real passion.

I seems to like everything in this world.

I love Fashion,Dancing,Sports,Drawing,Singing,Designing.

ALMOST EVERYTHING.

Sometimes,I just feel rather stupid.

IDK why but I just did.

I have been wondering sometimes..

Why can't I stay put to one Hobby and master it??

I know I can't because everything in this world seems so interesting.

OH WELL.

easy to said.

I have A LOT of WORRIES.

im worried of everything.

=(

12:54 AM
Yours truly.

I love you.

who?

EVERYBODY!!

Dear God

Here I am praying to you.

Please give me the strength to overcome obstacles.

Please give me the calmness and the spirit to live.

Guide me to the right path.

Show me the light instead of the darkness.

Guide me through and lift me up when I fall.

Here I am asking for your aid.

Please give me back the strentgh I used to have 4 years back.

Take away all my worries.

Send some guidance from above.

Life have been so hectic.

I am lost in the dark.

What is my strength actually??

I've been Jack of all trade but Master to none.

Still,I am searching for my real passion.

I seems to like everything in this world.

I love Fashion,Dancing,Sports,Drawing,Singing,Designing.

ALMOST EVERYTHING.

Sometimes,I just feel rather stupid.

IDK why but I just did.

I have been wondering sometimes..

Why can't I stay put to one Hobby and master it??

I know I can't because everything in this world seems so interesting.

OH WELL.

easy to said.

I have A LOT of WORRIES.

im worried of everything.

=(

12:54 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, September 9, 2007

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I am now blogging, of course.I am also at Aishah's crib now while waiting 4 bf to end his physics paper.Today I had Prelim Maths paper 1.The paper was quite tedious I must say.I was seated at the first row of the hall and gosh how I freaking hate it to sit right at the front.The duration for the maths paper was 2 hour.It started at 7.56 and end at 9.56.I put down my pen exactly at 9.56 and phew,I managed to attempt almost all the questions.Of course I did have two or three questions blank and the reason was simple,IDK!!!!hahahaha..Oh well,I will be going to the National Library later on with boyfriend.Tomorrow is History and Maths Paper 2.I will be mugging a lot today memorising history notes and also maths formula.I hope my brain will be working while I'm mugging later on.

Ok.I shall end here now.

I am freaking hungry and yeah.

I intend to COOK my favourite dish for myself.

hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

OK BYE.

8:51 PM
Yours truly.

I am now blogging, of course.I am also at Aishah's crib now while waiting 4 bf to end his physics paper.Today I had Prelim Maths paper 1.The paper was quite tedious I must say.I was seated at the first row of the hall and gosh how I freaking hate it to sit right at the front.The duration for the maths paper was 2 hour.It started at 7.56 and end at 9.56.I put down my pen exactly at 9.56 and phew,I managed to attempt almost all the questions.Of course I did have two or three questions blank and the reason was simple,IDK!!!!hahahaha..Oh well,I will be going to the National Library later on with boyfriend.Tomorrow is History and Maths Paper 2.I will be mugging a lot today memorising history notes and also maths formula.I hope my brain will be working while I'm mugging later on.

Ok.I shall end here now.

I am freaking hungry and yeah.

I intend to COOK my favourite dish for myself.

hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

OK BYE.

8:51 PM
Yours truly.

Saturday, September 8, 2007

My boyfriend is

My brother is so effing cute and I so love him a million.

Look at his hair,I did it for him okehh.

"brother,no matter how irritating you are..I still LOVE YOU TO BITS okehh."

I woke up at 7.30 today and get dressed up for my tuition.I am feeling lethargic today but still life have to go on to the fullest.My tuition ended at 10.30 and then I proceed to cck mrt and met boyfriend there.We boarded the mrt towards Jurong East of course because our destination was the National Library which is at Bugis.As soon as we reached there,we took out our maths ten years series and start doing.Gosh we were so focused on our maths today that we spoke less.After two hour of mugging,we then proceed to Bugis Junction and have our lunch.Oh yar,boyfriend and me exchanged our food because I don't like the food I brought from home.Boyfriend seemed to enjoy the food that I brought.hahahaha..nice is it boyfriend???After our super duper lunch,we walked to the esplanade and did our mugging at the esplanade library.This time round,we were not focusing because all we could think of is to slack.So yeah,we went to the roof top and slack our ass there.

Oh well.Under my block today,boyfriend did something SEXY and HILARIOUS.I couldnt stop laughing by the thought of it.Up till now,I am still giggling okehh.Boyfriend,please do your "thing" more often kiezz.You look HOT.

Alright.Till here den.

TOODLES.

=)

7:25 AM
Yours truly.

My boyfriend is

My brother is so effing cute and I so love him a million.

Look at his hair,I did it for him okehh.

"brother,no matter how irritating you are..I still LOVE YOU TO BITS okehh."

I woke up at 7.30 today and get dressed up for my tuition.I am feeling lethargic today but still life have to go on to the fullest.My tuition ended at 10.30 and then I proceed to cck mrt and met boyfriend there.We boarded the mrt towards Jurong East of course because our destination was the National Library which is at Bugis.As soon as we reached there,we took out our maths ten years series and start doing.Gosh we were so focused on our maths today that we spoke less.After two hour of mugging,we then proceed to Bugis Junction and have our lunch.Oh yar,boyfriend and me exchanged our food because I don't like the food I brought from home.Boyfriend seemed to enjoy the food that I brought.hahahaha..nice is it boyfriend???After our super duper lunch,we walked to the esplanade and did our mugging at the esplanade library.This time round,we were not focusing because all we could think of is to slack.So yeah,we went to the roof top and slack our ass there.

Oh well.Under my block today,boyfriend did something SEXY and HILARIOUS.I couldnt stop laughing by the thought of it.Up till now,I am still giggling okehh.Boyfriend,please do your "thing" more often kiezz.You look HOT.

Alright.Till here den.

TOODLES.

=)

7:25 AM
Yours truly.

Friday, September 7, 2007

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SENTOSA WAS FUN.

Those are the HUMANS that went to Sentosa today.I know,it's pathetic but hey we don't need a dozen of people to come in order to have fun.We have enough already.With those HUMANS there,our day went

MADNESS!!!

I had fun sun-tanning while the rest was disturbing me by taking pictures every second.I was disturbed okehh.I'm not at peace.hahahahaha.I was just joking.The water was very cooling.We reached there exactly at 9 am and we are the only HUMANS there.Oh we conquered the Pahlawan Beach.By 10 plus,people started to come in and we were "OH MAN!".

Hilarious.Mubin with his tiny winy cutie lil BLUE BOXERS.

Right after bitching,we when to Vivo City and watched movie entittled "I know who killed me".Lindsay Luohan was the main character and gosh she was so SEDUCTIVE and SEXY.why I said so??Go ahead and watch it..I bet your JAWS will drop like nobody bussiness.After the movie,we went window shopping and I was freaking tempted to buy those tempting clothes,bags,flip flops, shoes and many more but too bad I was broke.And when I said broke,I am really broke till I can't even buy myself a bottle of drink okehh.How pathetic was that?VERY!!!!After the window shopping,we proceed to the Peninsula and then to the Esplanade.

OVERALL.My day was GREAT.

I MISS MY BOYFRIEND.

(nvm,tomorrow get to meet him.baaahhhh!)

4:57 AM
Yours truly.