A Big Dreamer

Monday, June 7, 2010

I am pretty much mentally exhausted. I felt moody for the past few days. Naahhh, Im not having my pms. Just some random moodswings. This moodswings is taking it's toll on me. Yeahh yeaahh, say whatever you want to say. I don't care.

Everything is not right. I put up a fake smile most of the time and it isn't fun at all. Where's my faith? Where's my spirit? I don't fcuking know where it goes to. What I know, I need someone to be just there. But I know there's none because I've been drilled to this head of mine that no one is going to be there for you except yourself. Fcuk it! I'm tired of depending EVERYTHING all by myself. I ain't bo superwoman.

I think I know why I am like this. I just don't want to tell it. I'd rather held it in. But fcuk! Till when? At times, I just feel like shouting and spill everything off. I don't care whether or not it's my fault but I just want to spill it out. urggh, I shouldn't be writting it down here. No point. This damn feeling wouldn't dissapear anyway.

I feel so negative. ya ya ya! fcuk lahh! tsk! see, so many vulgarities.

where's my hero?

8:30 AM
Yours truly.

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	Monday, June 7, 2010 I am pretty much mentally exhausted. I felt moody for the past few days. Naahhh, Im not having my pms. Just some random moodswings. This moodswings is taking it's toll on me. Yeahh yeaahh, say whatever you want to say. I don't care. Everything is not right. I put up a fake smile most of the time and it isn't fun at all. Where's my faith? Where's my spirit? I don't fcuking know where it goes to. What I know, I need someone to be just there. But I know there's none because I've been drilled to this head of mine that no one is going to be there for you except yourself. Fcuk it! I'm tired of depending EVERYTHING all by myself. I ain't bo superwoman. I think I know why I am like this. I just don't want to tell it. I'd rather held it in. But fcuk! Till when? At times, I just feel like shouting and spill everything off. I don't care whether or not it's my fault but I just want to spill it out. urggh, I shouldn't be writting it down here. No point. This damn feeling wouldn't dissapear anyway. I feel so negative. ya ya ya! fcuk lahh! tsk! see, so many vulgarities. where's my hero? 8:30 AM Yours truly.	Yours Truly Syahirah. 18. Republic Poly. Pharmaceutical Science. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day. And oh, don't forget to fly. Music Playlist at MixPod.com Click please Links Beads&Ribbons Gf Raudhah Gf Nadz Gf Izzi Gf Leeyan Gf Sasha Gf Anisah Zelah Mr Ng Fatin kidd Andy ShaSha Hasnim Hazirah Lala Parker Sissy Syuu Abg Isk Afiq Heedayah Hyraah Shasha Rockstar Atiqah kasha amira rp daniel rp Syahidah rp Syuee rp Salim rp Nadhirah chiron Atikah chiron Shaihah chiron Nazahah chiron Alif Hakim dhilah sue rp luqman hakim tiqsy Nizzam Abby Ulfah Jolene Aishah Archives May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 Credits Biggest credit: the bikini boy Editor: JollyPills/:B