A Big Dreamer

Friday, May 21, 2010

I really need a getaway so badly ;(

It hasn't been a great week for me. So many mistakes and dissapointments. Weekends are coming. I can't help but to look back at my weekdays and shake my head. I've failed. I've failed to make full use of my weekdays. No point regretting it because it's irreversible. All I can do is to learn from it. I am very dissapointed because I just broke my own promises. :( What a bummer Syahirah!! When will you turn over a new leaf? When will you prioritize YOURSELF and SCHOOL? I've made a mistakes by involving myself with some commitments. Now, 2 parties are depending on me. If I fail them, I might as well kill myself because I agreed. But there's pros and cons. If I fail them, I can retrieve back my time and if I don't, I'm always going to be occupied and tired which equates to less studies ad revision. I feel so helpless. I've already sacrificed my rock climbing (MY INTEREST). That is something sacred. Do I really have to sacrifice again this time round? Is it going to be worth the sacrifisation? :/

I envy those people who don't really care with involvements/commitments. Like, they can concentrate on their school and interest. Nothing else. Unlike me, I have so many things to concentrate on and it's very exhausting. :( I am practically saddened that I could not continue rock climbing with the team. If only I could, I would. But I couldn't. :( It's very depressing whenever I have to replied nazahah, it will always be " I can't come, I have tutoring ". Yes, I am thaaaaat occupied. :/ Some people suggest that I quit tutoring so that I have all the weekdays to myself. But hey, it's not that simple if you were me. I hate to be irresponsible. Sometimes, how I really wish that I have the guts to say " look, I have to stop tutoring. I don't have enough time for myself ". What would they say? They think that I'm just not serious in it. And oh, I don't like to do things halfway. Moreover, I need $$$ to supprt myself. I don't come from a rich family.

:/ :/ :/ I need a getaway.

12:08 AM
Yours truly.

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	Friday, May 21, 2010 I really need a getaway so badly ;( It hasn't been a great week for me. So many mistakes and dissapointments. Weekends are coming. I can't help but to look back at my weekdays and shake my head. I've failed. I've failed to make full use of my weekdays. No point regretting it because it's irreversible. All I can do is to learn from it. I am very dissapointed because I just broke my own promises. :( What a bummer Syahirah!! When will you turn over a new leaf? When will you prioritize YOURSELF and SCHOOL? I've made a mistakes by involving myself with some commitments. Now, 2 parties are depending on me. If I fail them, I might as well kill myself because I agreed. But there's pros and cons. If I fail them, I can retrieve back my time and if I don't, I'm always going to be occupied and tired which equates to less studies ad revision. I feel so helpless. I've already sacrificed my rock climbing (MY INTEREST). That is something sacred. Do I really have to sacrifice again this time round? Is it going to be worth the sacrifisation? :/ I envy those people who don't really care with involvements/commitments. Like, they can concentrate on their school and interest. Nothing else. Unlike me, I have so many things to concentrate on and it's very exhausting. :( I am practically saddened that I could not continue rock climbing with the team. If only I could, I would. But I couldn't. :( It's very depressing whenever I have to replied nazahah, it will always be " I can't come, I have tutoring ". Yes, I am thaaaaat occupied. :/ Some people suggest that I quit tutoring so that I have all the weekdays to myself. But hey, it's not that simple if you were me. I hate to be irresponsible. Sometimes, how I really wish that I have the guts to say " look, I have to stop tutoring. I don't have enough time for myself ". What would they say? They think that I'm just not serious in it. And oh, I don't like to do things halfway. Moreover, I need $$$ to supprt myself. I don't come from a rich family. :/ :/ :/ I need a getaway. 12:08 AM Yours truly.	Yours Truly Syahirah. 18. Republic Poly. Pharmaceutical Science. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day. And oh, don't forget to fly. Music Playlist at MixPod.com Click please Links Beads&Ribbons Gf Raudhah Gf Nadz Gf Izzi Gf Leeyan Gf Sasha Gf Anisah Zelah Mr Ng Fatin kidd Andy ShaSha Hasnim Hazirah Lala Parker Sissy Syuu Abg Isk Afiq Heedayah Hyraah Shasha Rockstar Atiqah kasha amira rp daniel rp Syahidah rp Syuee rp Salim rp Nadhirah chiron Atikah chiron Shaihah chiron Nazahah chiron Alif Hakim dhilah sue rp luqman hakim tiqsy Nizzam Abby Ulfah Jolene Aishah Archives May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 Credits Biggest credit: the bikini boy Editor: JollyPills/:B