A Big Dreamer

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Every morning I wake up, feeling empty. And then I would go to the bathroom and cry.

Then I go outside and wipe my tears coz I don't want mommy and daddy to know that I'm

crying. I always have this itchy feeling of calling him and wake him up. But I would tell myself

that he doesn't need me. And when I reach school, I sit in class for 5 minutes and then off to

the toilet and cry again. At that point of time, I would really like to give him a call but I tell myself again, he's not interested in me. Everyday I wake up, feeling so sad because there's no

one for me to talk to in the morning. Everyday I wake up, wishing you would appear right infront of me. And then I realised, I never like waking up in the morning anymore. It's painful.

[edited]

I hate wednesday. =.= Physics day and I swear to god I hate it. aaaarghh! So, I just tooke 2 movies from gf Nadz. :) I wanna take more movies so that when I am bored at home, I can occupy myself with this. Because lately, the last thing I want to do is to be alone. When I'm alone, tears will start to burn my eyes. haiss.. sometimes, I wish I could turn back the time and improve on my mistakes. I know I would be happier if that is bound to happen. Can we still be together but no strings attach b??? ;( I know you still love me. Do you?? :( Atleast I know I have someone to love. Atleast I know you are there. Atleast I know I'll wake up smilling. Atleast I know that I can hug and kiss you. Atleast I know I can make you smile again. Atleast I know I can chill with you and laugh together. Atleast I can call you and ask how are ya doing. Atleast I still know that you're mine to keep.

[edited]

People might see me as a strong person because I didn't bring personal matter to school. But what they don't know, I've been carrying my personal matter with me everywhere I go but I chuck it one side. I might be smiling but my heart is dying. I might look okay but the fact is, I feel empty every second of my life. Yes, I occupy myself with a lot of things but deep within me, there's a hole. And only one person in this whole entire world can close that hold. I'm just waiting for that person to come and close it back. And that person is none other than Shahrin. The one I've been thinking of since I start opening my eyes till the moment I close my eyes back. The one I've been missing. It's all back to square one. I used to like him secretly back in secondary school days but now, I had to love him secretly. And I tell you what, it's hurting me. But that's all I can do and think of. I am not giving up on you. Not just yet. My heart doesn't want to. I still yearn for you. Every day and every night. Wish I may and wish I might, that he's going to be mine again. :( Shahrin, I am officially missing you & us.

4:25 PM
Yours truly.

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	Tuesday, December 8, 2009 Every morning I wake up, feeling empty. And then I would go to the bathroom and cry. Then I go outside and wipe my tears coz I don't want mommy and daddy to know that I'm crying. I always have this itchy feeling of calling him and wake him up. But I would tell myself that he doesn't need me. And when I reach school, I sit in class for 5 minutes and then off to the toilet and cry again. At that point of time, I would really like to give him a call but I tell myself again, he's not interested in me. Everyday I wake up, feeling so sad because there's no one for me to talk to in the morning. Everyday I wake up, wishing you would appear right infront of me. And then I realised, I never like waking up in the morning anymore. It's painful. [edited] I hate wednesday. =.= Physics day and I swear to god I hate it. aaaarghh! So, I just tooke 2 movies from gf Nadz. :) I wanna take more movies so that when I am bored at home, I can occupy myself with this. Because lately, the last thing I want to do is to be alone. When I'm alone, tears will start to burn my eyes. haiss.. sometimes, I wish I could turn back the time and improve on my mistakes. I know I would be happier if that is bound to happen. Can we still be together but no strings attach b??? ;( I know you still love me. Do you?? :( Atleast I know I have someone to love. Atleast I know you are there. Atleast I know I'll wake up smilling. Atleast I know that I can hug and kiss you. Atleast I know I can make you smile again. Atleast I know I can chill with you and laugh together. Atleast I can call you and ask how are ya doing. Atleast I still know that you're mine to keep. [edited] People might see me as a strong person because I didn't bring personal matter to school. But what they don't know, I've been carrying my personal matter with me everywhere I go but I chuck it one side. I might be smiling but my heart is dying. I might look okay but the fact is, I feel empty every second of my life. Yes, I occupy myself with a lot of things but deep within me, there's a hole. And only one person in this whole entire world can close that hold. I'm just waiting for that person to come and close it back. And that person is none other than Shahrin. The one I've been thinking of since I start opening my eyes till the moment I close my eyes back. The one I've been missing. It's all back to square one. I used to like him secretly back in secondary school days but now, I had to love him secretly. And I tell you what, it's hurting me. But that's all I can do and think of. I am not giving up on you. Not just yet. My heart doesn't want to. I still yearn for you. Every day and every night. Wish I may and wish I might, that he's going to be mine again. :( Shahrin, I am officially missing you & us. 4:25 PM Yours truly.	Yours Truly Syahirah. 18. Republic Poly. Pharmaceutical Science. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day. And oh, don't forget to fly. Music Playlist at MixPod.com Click please Links Beads&Ribbons Gf Raudhah Gf Nadz Gf Izzi Gf Leeyan Gf Sasha Gf Anisah Zelah Mr Ng Fatin kidd Andy ShaSha Hasnim Hazirah Lala Parker Sissy Syuu Abg Isk Afiq Heedayah Hyraah Shasha Rockstar Atiqah kasha amira rp daniel rp Syahidah rp Syuee rp Salim rp Nadhirah chiron Atikah chiron Shaihah chiron Nazahah chiron Alif Hakim dhilah sue rp luqman hakim tiqsy Nizzam Abby Ulfah Jolene Aishah Archives May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 Credits Biggest credit: the bikini boy Editor: JollyPills/:B