Sweet text were send to each other stating how excited we were to meet or how we missed each other. But honestly, I never felt it. Because I know those were just words and his our words will always stays as words. but I told myself to be positive this time. Who knows, those words were put into action. So, I put those words to a test. ;)

We met. The moment I met him, I felt pain. I dont know why. When I looked at him, I saw a liar, I saw dissapointment, I saw boredom, I saw dishonesty, I saw sadness and I saw failure and blunders. :( I couldn't be myself. I couldn't be the usual me. I kept quiet because I don't feel like talking. So there goes my instinct, it's always right. Our words are just pure words. Told ya! I don't know why I can't talk to him like how I used to. I tried, but I can't. Whenever I tried to talk to him, I saw irritation. Irritation tht will come from him. I saw unsincerity. hais.. this is what happen when couples got into a fight so often. :(

To be honest, I couldn't believe him like how I used to. I see him as a normal boy who wants to enjoy life. All the unexpected were shown and I got blown up. This is what happened when he lied to me too much and when I got hurt too many times. :( Honestly, I gave up on him. Im tired of fighting.

So, I stayed quiet all the way. I can't communicate with him. I just can't. hais..I wanted to but I just can't! :( urghhh... but than, things get better when Im about to go home. but still, hais.

You, yeah you Shahrin. I don't know what is going to happen to us. I guess this is a test from god because he knows we always managed to handle it. I hope we stay strong like how we are right now. I don't want to lose you yet. Infact, I never want to lose you. You might lost your spark but I still do believe tht you're special.

xoxo, S.