Today's afternoon was pathetic and saddening, I swear. I woke up as early as 10am and joined lil brother and parents at the living room, watching UP. Very funny, inspiring and soft hearted show. I love it, superb! Afterwhich at 12, I made my way to the school library. I was thinking of not telling rein that I've went out of house because I want to see of he really cares to beep me up first. But me being me, I called him and told him I'm out.  While on my way to school, I texted him if he's going out with me today after I study. He said tht he's going to bras basah with his brother and then after that going over to his yayi house. I never believed it. Never.

With me having pms, I got irritated. Very very irritated. First, Im all alone on SATURDAY. I fcuking dont want to go out with gfs. You know why? because they will start sharing their relationship problems and talk about guys, guys and guys. I swear to god I've heard enough of it and Im in no mood to hear all that. Besides, I want to be happy! I dont want to hear problems and then crack my brain cells and console them. Im sick and tired of it, seriously, Like fcuking TIRED and EXHAUSTED of hearing all that. eeeeeeik! Irritating much! I've never like it when I have to be alone during my pms. I feel so lonely and sad and I couldn't control my emotions. I hate to be lonely. I never like it. Who likes to be sad and lonely. Agree?

I was supposed to mug but I just couldn't focused. I kept on hearing " Just stand up " and " It's alright, It's ok " songs just to calm myself down. But I couldn't because the fights between me and bf doesn't help anything at all. Infact, I went to the toilet, and cry..cry..cry. Imagine, you cry alone inside a toilet wishing that your bf appear infront of you, hug you tight and kiss you on your forehead. Saddening isn't it? I had to cry in silent okay and it's painful, I swear. Once done, I wipe my tears and headed back to the place I sat. I stared at the lappy's screen. My brain's dead because all I could think of was boyfriend. He occupied most of the space in my brain. How to study like that? So I packed up my bag and went home. While on my way home, I play the song "it's alright, it's okay" on a repeat mode. I felt better. I bought lunch at Mc D and brought it home. Once reached, parents were not around. =______________=. Alone, again. I seriously don't want to start thinking about bf so I called mom and asked her where she was. So, I met the family excluding sister. We went to Mustafa Centre. I bought make ups. I loooooooooooooooooove it. woohooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now my savings are as good as $0. =.= That part not good okay. hahas!

So now Im back, home sweet home. Feeling sleepy but at the same time excited because I can use my new make ups 2morrow!! yippeeee. gd night!