I hate my weekdays. But as much as I hate it, I have to accept how my weekdays goes. Yes Shahrin, you were right. You're still a teenager and it's so obvious that you don't want to settle down yet. duhh! You still want to have fun. Fine, go ahead. Do as you please.

So yes, I've made up my mind. I don't want to be the girl who will call you and ask you where you are. I don't want to be the girl who will text you and ask what you're doing. I don't want to be the girl who will nag at you. I don't want to be the girl who will search for your friends and ask them to find you. I don't want to be your alarm clock. I don't want to put high hopes on you. I don't want to meet you anymore. I'm sure and confident enough that you can live without me. duhh! you don't need me Shahrin. You can live own your own. Since you love to say that people die alone in the future. So yeah, go ahead. I don't want to be a burden to you and I don't want to be the pain in the ass. I don't want to know.

You go ahead. I'll stay here. I've leaved my teenager life along time ago and I don't want to start it back. I've had enough fun with friends back then, though I really miss those times up till now. But this is my life. And I believve everything happens for a reason. I believed that god is testing me. I might show a sign of weaknesses but I don't want to quit. I don't want to give up in my life. Never.

Goodnight.

7:36 AM
Yours truly.