A very difficult day it was. So much of emotions to handle. Rusty chain of thoughts followed by crazy emotions. Damn! What a bizarre day. I felt stranded with no one to rescue me. I played songs to sooth my emotions and put my thinking cap to stop me from doing something stupid. I embraced my patience and hold my tears. My energy were used up. Been laying on my bed aimlessly waiting for god to send someone to make my frown upside down.

Staying at home doesn't help at all. Nothing much to do but to watch tv. Mom and sister doing their own sweet thing while I am trying to fix my day. Been there and done that but NOTHING works. Finally, a " haha " from his text messages. That entirely ease me. Even if it was a word, it still does made a lot of impact on me. A "haha" means he's okay, I hope. A little hope that shows he's okay out there made a lot of difference in my life. Huge alteration. :)

For now, let the rest of my thoughts strummed away within myself. Good night.