A Big Dreamer

Saturday, April 11, 2009

" I'm sick. "

Instead of bbq-ing, went towning with bf. Bought casio watch & high waist pants. Thanks bf for the watch.

The fresh air seems like an air conditioner to me. Obviously, I'm having fever. That lonely night walk I had earlier on somehow satisfied me. Alot of things were running through my mind. It's just great to be thinking about it one by one as I walked down the dark pavement. So yeah, I realised that the past still haunts me up till this very moment.. and I made a promise to myself not to be afraid of the past. What past is past. right? That's ONE promise. This month isn't MY month. So much of spending time alone at home with nothing to do. Tv shows bores me alot. Not much of activities for me. Infact, there's none. I stumbled on that because I seriously hate to be doing nothing and to do somthing thats not worth anything. Get what I mean? I really hate it to the core. I guess Im too sad and irritated about it that my whole life right now seems to be so lifeless. Yeah, something like that. Alot of things are changing in my life. It got me so lost. Freaking lost. I lost myself so much till I forgot who I really was. I change, people change..soo many things change. I hate to adapt to changes but I guess I really need to push myself this time. Yeah. I feel lonely, most of the time. But nvm, things happened for a reason. And now, I've put my mind straight into some things that I really want to achieve. I've burden alot of people already. And so, its really the time for me to be very independent. Words and just words to me. I don't want to belive so much in words unless I'm proven guilty. Get what I mean?? Actions speaks louder than words. The only way to start working is to stop talking and start doing. Well, I don't know. It seems like its wrong to be complaining & it's wrong to get mad or to be moody. Is it criminal?? Im confused. I am a very confuse person. But no worries.. I've also promise myself not to complain or should I say not to share about what I feel. That's the 2nd promise I made. Straight to the point, if im feeling sad, mad, happy or what so ever..I'll just shut up. I have reasons for that. I just want to take care of myself and achieve my goals, nothing else. The rest are not as important for me to focus on. I don't want to care so much on certain things bcoz it got me soo ****.

So yeah, thats it. Im done. good night.

i've had enough & im giving up one third of it.

7:03 AM
Yours truly.

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	Saturday, April 11, 2009 " I'm sick. " Instead of bbq-ing, went towning with bf. Bought casio watch & high waist pants. Thanks bf for the watch. The fresh air seems like an air conditioner to me. Obviously, I'm having fever. That lonely night walk I had earlier on somehow satisfied me. Alot of things were running through my mind. It's just great to be thinking about it one by one as I walked down the dark pavement. So yeah, I realised that the past still haunts me up till this very moment.. and I made a promise to myself not to be afraid of the past. What past is past. right? That's ONE promise. This month isn't MY month. So much of spending time alone at home with nothing to do. Tv shows bores me alot. Not much of activities for me. Infact, there's none. I stumbled on that because I seriously hate to be doing nothing and to do somthing thats not worth anything. Get what I mean? I really hate it to the core. I guess Im too sad and irritated about it that my whole life right now seems to be so lifeless. Yeah, something like that. Alot of things are changing in my life. It got me so lost. Freaking lost. I lost myself so much till I forgot who I really was. I change, people change..soo many things change. I hate to adapt to changes but I guess I really need to push myself this time. Yeah. I feel lonely, most of the time. But nvm, things happened for a reason. And now, I've put my mind straight into some things that I really want to achieve. I've burden alot of people already. And so, its really the time for me to be very independent. Words and just words to me. I don't want to belive so much in words unless I'm proven guilty. Get what I mean?? Actions speaks louder than words. The only way to start working is to stop talking and start doing. Well, I don't know. It seems like its wrong to be complaining & it's wrong to get mad or to be moody. Is it criminal?? Im confused. I am a very confuse person. But no worries.. I've also promise myself not to complain or should I say not to share about what I feel. That's the 2nd promise I made. Straight to the point, if im feeling sad, mad, happy or what so ever..I'll just shut up. I have reasons for that. I just want to take care of myself and achieve my goals, nothing else. The rest are not as important for me to focus on. I don't want to care so much on certain things bcoz it got me soo ****. So yeah, thats it. Im done. good night. i've had enough & im giving up one third of it. 7:03 AM Yours truly.	Yours Truly Syahirah. 18. Republic Poly. Pharmaceutical Science. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day. And oh, don't forget to fly. Music Playlist at MixPod.com Click please Links Beads&Ribbons Gf Raudhah Gf Nadz Gf Izzi Gf Leeyan Gf Sasha Gf Anisah Zelah Mr Ng Fatin kidd Andy ShaSha Hasnim Hazirah Lala Parker Sissy Syuu Abg Isk Afiq Heedayah Hyraah Shasha Rockstar Atiqah kasha amira rp daniel rp Syahidah rp Syuee rp Salim rp Nadhirah chiron Atikah chiron Shaihah chiron Nazahah chiron Alif Hakim dhilah sue rp luqman hakim tiqsy Nizzam Abby Ulfah Jolene Aishah Archives May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 Credits Biggest credit: the bikini boy Editor: JollyPills/:B