Life is in mess for the moment. My patience is running out very soon. So many resolutions that I have yet to achive. Dissapointment. I get up each day, living my life to the fullest but as for today..I opened my eyes, nearly giving up. And then I said " hang on..cause success is a big matter of hanging on when others have let it go ". I put a smile on my face, wishing it came from the bottom of my heart. I laughed, simply because I had to. Things are just so out of control and how I wish I had a remote control so that this brain of mine did not have to work so much. My chain of thoughts are rusty and it's breaking apart. Sometimes I wonder, why do I have to think so much.

I hate it when it turn out this way. I locked myself in my room the whole day, figuring what to do next. I read my inspirational book and I felt motivated, but it didn't last. My faith is crumbling. Staring at the ceiling with teary eyes. ( I think I need a cloud ceiling, it's better to stare at. So blue and calm. heh! ). Songs after songs but still, it didn't work out. Usually, when I'm feeling down, songs brighten me up. It didn't happen today.

And now, I realised I can't let this problems ruin me. Get up and solve it! New resolutions for this year are coming up and I'm going to achieve it. I must! The secret of life is to fall 7 times and get up 8 times. It's a test I don't want to fail. I must take every failure as a next step to success. Alone I may stand but I'm proud of it. Hurdles coming up along the way but I'm going to take the biggest leap.I'll begin with small steps. FEAR may keep me small but I'm going to run towards my fears and embrace them. On the other side of my greatest fear lives my greatest life. I'm going to get out of the stands and get on the court. Play the game of life. Take risk. LEAP, and the net will appear. I'm going to seek knowledge from the cradle to the grave. :)

WOAAAHH!!!!!! My words of wisdom is coming out. hahaha! Well, I'm proud of myself that I can get out of the entagled wires myself. heh! Despite this sorrowness of mine..this girls below made my day and finally, made me smile that came from the bottom of my heart. Aaaawwww..thats so sweet of you girls. :) btw, I nvr forced them to write that okay. I was shocked when my girls, Izzah and Nurul came up to me and showed the whiteboard to me after I came back from my break.

from left : Nurul Syahfiqah, Fatimah, Athirah and Izzah Ilyana.

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Yours truly.