A Big Dreamer

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Seriously, my mind is rudely distracted by soooo many things. Things that I couldn't say it out loud and things that I couldn't pen it down. I feel lost, irritated, sad and a lot more. I'm telling myself to be strong and don't let my emotions ruin myself. I'm trying, very hard. I feel like breaking down but hopefully, with someone beside me and console me so that I feel everything will be alright. Put that aside, cause I know there isn't. I gotta stay strong and dump those irritating thoughts. Everyday, I remind myself to wake up and smile and appreciate that I am still here, breathing..rather than to die and be alone. I always remind myself that my problems are not as big as what I thought. I'm glad that I still have my families and friends. putting up a smile on my face is real hard when I know that behind that smile, lies a thousands of stuff lingering on my mind. Life's tough but there's always hope and faith. Patience, that is what I learn this year. Everything happens for a reason and I believe that god is fair. Keeping this stuff to myself is taking my heart away, I swear. I don't want to say why this is happening to me because like I said, everything happens for a reason. How I really wish, there is someone for me to share my very deepest feelings. Despite this hectic situation, I never come across this word called GIVING UP. It's not in my dictionary. Haizz, well I guess all I need to do right now is to stay calm and believe in myself that I can pull this through. It's not as big as what I though. :) I swear to god I miss someone soooo badly. Where are you, love??? GOD, help meeeeeeeee pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssssseeeeeee!!! :(

SYAHIRAH IS STROOOONG OKAAAY!! DON'T PLAY PLAY!! :) but sometimes, I'm tired of fighting. haaaizz.

Out with girlfriends today. Like I said, movie outing. Before movie, Gf Izzi and myself shop for a dress. 2 dress for $30 so we paid $15 each, duuhh!!! We then headed to Taka and met up with Gf Mas. Apparently, the three of us wore GREEN dress. Unexpected, I know! So it's green day for us today. We then walked to Cineleisure and bought our movie tickets. Slumberdog, it was. If I were to rate it, I give 10 out of 10. Awesome movie. My $6 was not wasted. Walked around and then proceed causeway point to have our late dinner. Slacked for awhile and then we parted ways.

Pictures below, not much. Some are with mas. :)

I Love you izzianie. ;)

back then, I used to have him next to me whereever I go. Too pampered, I guess. But now, it's a different story. Can I have him back beside me wherever I go now? Pleeeeeeeeaaaase???

6:53 AM
Yours truly.

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	Wednesday, February 25, 2009 Seriously, my mind is rudely distracted by soooo many things. Things that I couldn't say it out loud and things that I couldn't pen it down. I feel lost, irritated, sad and a lot more. I'm telling myself to be strong and don't let my emotions ruin myself. I'm trying, very hard. I feel like breaking down but hopefully, with someone beside me and console me so that I feel everything will be alright. Put that aside, cause I know there isn't. I gotta stay strong and dump those irritating thoughts. Everyday, I remind myself to wake up and smile and appreciate that I am still here, breathing..rather than to die and be alone. I always remind myself that my problems are not as big as what I thought. I'm glad that I still have my families and friends. putting up a smile on my face is real hard when I know that behind that smile, lies a thousands of stuff lingering on my mind. Life's tough but there's always hope and faith. Patience, that is what I learn this year. Everything happens for a reason and I believe that god is fair. Keeping this stuff to myself is taking my heart away, I swear. I don't want to say why this is happening to me because like I said, everything happens for a reason. How I really wish, there is someone for me to share my very deepest feelings. Despite this hectic situation, I never come across this word called GIVING UP. It's not in my dictionary. Haizz, well I guess all I need to do right now is to stay calm and believe in myself that I can pull this through. It's not as big as what I though. :) I swear to god I miss someone soooo badly. Where are you, love??? GOD, help meeeeeeeee pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssssseeeeeee!!! :( SYAHIRAH IS STROOOONG OKAAAY!! DON'T PLAY PLAY!! :) but sometimes, I'm tired of fighting. haaaizz. Out with girlfriends today. Like I said, movie outing. Before movie, Gf Izzi and myself shop for a dress. 2 dress for $30 so we paid $15 each, duuhh!!! We then headed to Taka and met up with Gf Mas. Apparently, the three of us wore GREEN dress. Unexpected, I know! So it's green day for us today. We then walked to Cineleisure and bought our movie tickets. Slumberdog, it was. If I were to rate it, I give 10 out of 10. Awesome movie. My $6 was not wasted. Walked around and then proceed causeway point to have our late dinner. Slacked for awhile and then we parted ways. Pictures below, not much. Some are with mas. :) I Love you izzianie. ;) back then, I used to have him next to me whereever I go. Too pampered, I guess. But now, it's a different story. Can I have him back beside me wherever I go now? Pleeeeeeeeaaaase??? 6:53 AM Yours truly.	Yours Truly Syahirah. 18. Republic Poly. Pharmaceutical Science. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day. And oh, don't forget to fly. Music Playlist at MixPod.com Click please Links Beads&Ribbons Gf Raudhah Gf Nadz Gf Izzi Gf Leeyan Gf Sasha Gf Anisah Zelah Mr Ng Fatin kidd Andy ShaSha Hasnim Hazirah Lala Parker Sissy Syuu Abg Isk Afiq Heedayah Hyraah Shasha Rockstar Atiqah kasha amira rp daniel rp Syahidah rp Syuee rp Salim rp Nadhirah chiron Atikah chiron Shaihah chiron Nazahah chiron Alif Hakim dhilah sue rp luqman hakim tiqsy Nizzam Abby Ulfah Jolene Aishah Archives May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 Credits Biggest credit: the bikini boy Editor: JollyPills/:B