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Friday, May 25, 2007

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Heyloo der people.

How are you people feeling?

Currently,my mood is swinging.I am facing the darkest part of my life.

I had PTC just now.My mom and me entered my beloved classroom and met my dear teacher,Mr Ng.We sat down and had some conversations.I know mum was dissapointed with my result.I did badly for my mid year and I,myself felt very dissapointed of myself.I studied real hard for mid year and the progress that I made was utterly shit.I couldn't understand myself.What I actually want in this life?I tried so hard to grab every chances that can help me improved on my studies.I went to the library and study for 3 hours.I did alot of practice for my maths and I did notes for my humanities.I stayed up till late night to do notes and I ended up feeling very lethargic during examinations.I felt very sleepy and I couldn't concentrate on doing the paper.The first two papers were alright but when it hit the rest of the subjects,my confidence just dissapeared.I tried so hard to hang on and persevere, and I did but I didn't gave it to my very best shot.I just prayed that luck was on my side but it didn't. Dad came and the situation get worsened. He didn't actually nag but he talked TOO MUCH. I wanted to cry,feeling very sad and down of myself.Am I that stupid?

Right now at this very moment.No one can actually understand how I feel.

haizz.How I wish I can blurt everything out.

Can I make it for the upcoming prelims and O level?

Am I able to sacrifice things?

will my parents have SOME confidence in me?

will my parents support me?

I mean,it's hard for me.I know where I am heading too but without the help from my parents,I cannot make it.I seldom get support from them and that is what I have been waiting for the rest of my life. A sincere support from my dear family and giving me some hopes for my life.I just feel like giving up right now but I know that it os not a smart idea. I hate it the most when people compare me to other people. And I hate it when my auntie's kept asking me why I produced poor result without giving me some support and advises.

CAN YOU ALL JUST UNDERSTAND HOW BAD I FEEL RIGHT NOW.

I FEEL HURT.I FEEL SO LOW.I FEEL STUPID.

5:10 AM
Yours truly.

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	Friday, May 25, 2007 Post Heyloo der people. How are you people feeling? Currently,my mood is swinging.I am facing the darkest part of my life. I had PTC just now.My mom and me entered my beloved classroom and met my dear teacher,Mr Ng.We sat down and had some conversations.I know mum was dissapointed with my result.I did badly for my mid year and I,myself felt very dissapointed of myself.I studied real hard for mid year and the progress that I made was utterly shit.I couldn't understand myself.What I actually want in this life?I tried so hard to grab every chances that can help me improved on my studies.I went to the library and study for 3 hours.I did alot of practice for my maths and I did notes for my humanities.I stayed up till late night to do notes and I ended up feeling very lethargic during examinations.I felt very sleepy and I couldn't concentrate on doing the paper.The first two papers were alright but when it hit the rest of the subjects,my confidence just dissapeared.I tried so hard to hang on and persevere, and I did but I didn't gave it to my very best shot.I just prayed that luck was on my side but it didn't. Dad came and the situation get worsened. He didn't actually nag but he talked TOO MUCH. I wanted to cry,feeling very sad and down of myself.Am I that stupid? Right now at this very moment.No one can actually understand how I feel. haizz.How I wish I can blurt everything out. Can I make it for the upcoming prelims and O level? Am I able to sacrifice things? will my parents have SOME confidence in me? will my parents support me? I mean,it's hard for me.I know where I am heading too but without the help from my parents,I cannot make it.I seldom get support from them and that is what I have been waiting for the rest of my life. A sincere support from my dear family and giving me some hopes for my life.I just feel like giving up right now but I know that it os not a smart idea. I hate it the most when people compare me to other people. And I hate it when my auntie's kept asking me why I produced poor result without giving me some support and advises. CAN YOU ALL JUST UNDERSTAND HOW BAD I FEEL RIGHT NOW. I FEEL HURT.I FEEL SO LOW.I FEEL STUPID. 5:10 AM Yours truly.	Yours Truly Syahirah. 18. Republic Poly. Pharmaceutical Science. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day. And oh, don't forget to fly. Music Playlist at MixPod.com Click please Links Beads&Ribbons Gf Raudhah Gf Nadz Gf Izzi Gf Leeyan Gf Sasha Gf Anisah Zelah Mr Ng Fatin kidd Andy ShaSha Hasnim Hazirah Lala Parker Sissy Syuu Abg Isk Afiq Heedayah Hyraah Shasha Rockstar Atiqah kasha amira rp daniel rp Syahidah rp Syuee rp Salim rp Nadhirah chiron Atikah chiron Shaihah chiron Nazahah chiron Alif Hakim dhilah sue rp luqman hakim tiqsy Nizzam Abby Ulfah Jolene Aishah Archives May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 Credits Biggest credit: the bikini boy Editor: JollyPills/:B